Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Through with It
I always try to make the effort to 'swallow' everything, every shit, that people i loved gave me but somehow it got stuck in between and make me want to puke but yet again, i hold on to it and 'swallow' again because deep down i really care for them.
at times, i am hating,blaming, doubting and feeling stupid and useless of myself. knowing that i'll never be good enough for anyone. i don't know how long i could take to put up with these. I don't want to be smiling away pretending that it's fine when it is totally not. But somehow, i gave in. I smiled.
till now, the only thing that i know that gets me through is that deep down, i know that i will. So it's all on me now.