Saturday, January 02, 2010
Ave - Maria - Beyonce
"She was lost, in so many different ways. Out of the darkness with no guide. I know the cost of a losing hand but for the grace of god go odd"
2009 ended with a dissapointment for me. 2010 started off badly as well. Negativity going around in the house, people throwing things and yelling in the house. And then with all the people around me. I don't know why bad things comes around me when I tried my very best to be good. Sometimes I have to fake a smile to make everything seems right in my life. I have never been the one who would show people that I am down, better yet share. Unless I am desperate to. When one's angry at someone, the other one,who's innocent, get the treatment. That's the case for me. I have close friends to rely on, Sad, Yana, Diy, Dir, and a few more. But how long could I hold on to them. They have their own issues. Atleast, they have that special someone to share everything with. Everything. For me, who? This is the situation where it will all boils down to me feeling really lonely. This is where I got lost. But yet again, I cover it up by smiling at it. I been doing this since I was 9 years old. Yes. 9 years old. It's when I started to realise life is all aint being fair.