Flaws & All

2010-01-02T02:41:00.000-08:00

Ave - Maria - Beyonce

"She was lost, in so many different ways. Out of the darkness with no guide. I know the cost of a losing hand but for the grace of god go odd"

2009 ended with a dissapointment for me. 2010 started off badly as well. Negativity going around in the house, people throwing things and yelling in the house. And then with all the people around me. I don't know why bad things comes around me when I tried my very best to be good. Sometimes I have to fake a smile to make everything seems right in my life. I have never been the one who would show people that I am down, better yet share. Unless I am desperate to. When one's angry at someone, the other one,who's innocent, get the treatment. That's the case for me. I have close friends to rely on, Sad, Yana, Diy, Dir, and a few more. But how long could I hold on to them. They have their own issues. Atleast, they have that special someone to share everything with. Everything. For me, who? This is the situation where it will all boils down to me feeling really lonely. This is where I got lost. But yet again, I cover it up by smiling at it. I been doing this since I was 9 years old. Yes. 9 years old. It's when I started to realise life is all aint being fair.

2009-11-03T10:07:00.000-08:00

Blessed - Brett Anderson

Finally I am able to use my lappy back after almost 2 months went missing...More Updates to come. Promise. Yours Truly.

2009-09-10T08:33:00.000-07:00

People behave differently when they want something they want badly. Some to the extend of even backstabbing their own 'friend'.... Some people. Haiz.

2009-08-25T22:36:00.000-07:00

Battlefield - Jordin Sparks

I am back after MIAing for almost 2 months now. Much to say but couldn't possibly let it all out here. All I could say that life couldn't be much better now. Except that yesterday was pretty hard day for me at work. All of sudden felt useless to my collegues. Couple of stuff I done it wrong and stuff that I don't even know. You put out so much expectation of yourself (because you don't want to let them down) and when you screw it up, you will feel the worst. Eventually, you're the losing end. Sometimes we don't have to have it all put so perfectly together that at times we have to just let it go. Life ain't perfect, we make mistakes to make life better.

Like the song goes: "...always look on the bright side of life..."

Talk to you all later. Adios!

2009-07-13T14:10:00.000-07:00

Will You Be There - Michael Jackson

......weary

tell me will you hold me

when wrong will you scold

when lost will you find me...

...lead me

love me & feed me

kiss me & free me

i'll be there.....

No matter how far you've gone now, to me, it just feels that you are getting more and more closer to me . Ever since seeing you for the first time through the glass cube and knowing that I couldn't get close to you with all those tubes pierced in you, you don't know how much I wanted to hold u and carry you. But somehow, Allah has chosen this very day to take you away and that this day was the day HE 'permit' me to touch, hold and carry you since you are 'FREE' from all that tubes and glass cube. How cold you felt. How peacefully you look. How soft your skin was. From there I know why Allah would want you more. I didn't want to let you go cause I know I won't able to hold you anymore. But the pale skin of yours brings me back to reality. It kills me. I will try to look after your twin sister & twin brother like my own family too. I love you. I'll be there......

2 death in a day. It's too much too bear. Though I ain't close to you Nek Nyang, you are just like my very own grandmother who I cares and respects very much.

In memories of my 2 Grandfather, my baby uncle, Abdul Malik, Nek Nyang & Tengku Putera Muzsyaqil. I love you but Allah loves you more.

2009-06-12T10:09:00.000-07:00

All My Only Dream - The Wonders

Yea! My Bro's is getting engage today. One down, 2 more to go (if you know what I mean). Everything in the house is all madness. From fixing up the tables, food preparations and dowrys. Infact right now, I should be helping out but I rather stay in my room. Can't stand the wheather these past few days. It's been freaking humid hot days. Even at night. Now, I realised how much I love the air-con. May the soul of the creator rest in peace. Mucho Mucho Love.

Diy & Ayu are now abroad. One is at Sydney and the latter is at Melbourne (*danger*danger). In a way, I envy. A good envy. Cause they get to go overseas for a HOLIDAY. Get it! HOLIDAY! I need those. God, how much I missed Tioman.

Another 'great shocking' news I got was about Megan Fox. Yea, the sexiest woman on earth as claimed by FHM. Well, as it turns out, OUR foxy Megan is a tranny. A tranny. Don't even know if it's true or not. But she did said it on one of the interview at the red carpet. The thing is, not sure if she said it for fun or for fact. So only time will tell.

I have not seen all of my friends for 2 weeks now. All of them. The only people I am with these past few weeks was with y collegues at work. Sad Life.

2009-05-19T03:36:00.000-07:00

Love For A Child - Jason Mraz

Leave & off days were well spent. I have not been working since friday and my next working day would be this coming thursday. Purposely took leave just to clear it bit by bit. Anyway, met up with Zam, Diy and Dir on Fri for dinner and minor shopping @ Tampines Central. Along the way saw Ayub, who apparently was out-of-this-world shock to see me. haha. Funny man, Ayub-ready! Zam, I hope that day I wasn't too harsh or mean in my opinion on the clothes. I'm just giving my truthful opinion and plus, I want to make u look great. Honest. Sorry eh buddy! :)

On Sat, went to meet up with fellow Airport KIAsss for dinner at Seoul Garden. Damn the place is pricey for sure.

On Sun, went picnic with YANA and SAD and FAD and SHAIKH KADIR. Finally. Had blast with them and night falls, we proceed to Starbucks @ One Fullerton and continued cam fest there. Yana shared something MAJOR and pretty IMPORTANT stuff with me n Sad. I had nothing but love for both of these ladies :)

Then yesterday was my 'hang-out' with someone. It was ok. Had good time. Dinner at Lerk Thai and then early supper at Starbucks. I mean it wasn't bad. We shared songs in iTouch and my Samsung mp3. Some similarites. Yeah. So Yeah :) Too early to say.

And as usual, there are pics to show. Cause as you all now know, ridzwan now comes with a Camera :) The picnic pics will put it on the next entry cause there's too much of shots taken.

p.s. - I love my BB..haha!

@ Seoul Garden

@ Lina's Void Deck

@ my room , with just my PANDA! I love u, Panda :)

@ SC/SB

2009-05-04T04:09:00.001-07:00

Thinking Of You - Katy Perry

Longing to meet people that I have not seen for so long time. Countless of them. And I have heard some things...Somethings have changed. Things at work are going great for me. Bonding with the team and all. But nevertheless, I feel the lost and to be honest I don't know what is it.

Been practically working straight since the 27th of April and it will only stop till the 7th. And it's damn 'shagging'. That's why all I want right now is to really enjoy myself. Let it all out. Chill.

The Black Party @ Fort Canning & Chery's 21st Birthday.

2009-04-15T06:34:00.000-07:00

The Show - Lenka

I got to cut on my spendings from now on. Seriously. After receving the letter saying that I owe my dad's CPF $5300 for using it to pay for my dipoma fees. Plus, working for the government (being in NS that is) doesn't really help that much. Infact, alot.

2009-04-11T11:08:00.000-07:00

Letter Read - Rachael Yamagata

" my love my love, how could you do this to me...

my love my love, you were supposed to be..."

Awesome week this week was. Though it was tiring at the beginning but the long weekend truly remedy it real good. From shopping( shirts shopping with family) to hang outs sessions(with rangers) to photo hunt (Sad) to fashion show (Calvin Klein Underwear spring/summer '09). My course is ending in less than 10 days and that means I've got to go back to normal 12 working shift hours. Truly must savour the office hours these last remaining days of my course.

By the way, JUSTIN, you got the wrong person and hell yeah, I am gonna whack you if it gonna make the 3 of us awkward. haha. I swear I'll make you more gay-ier than you already are, man. haha.

random

Photo-hunt2 @ 'Suicide' & fullerton one

hang-out session @ jalan kayu & DE

pretending only. I don't smoke.

Calvin Klein Underwear Fashion show (after show)

tra dum dum

2009-03-29T03:15:00.000-07:00

Breathing - Lifehouse

"if your mind keeps telling you had enough, but the heart keeps telling you don't give up...... you can live your life, LET YOUR HEART BE YOUR GUIDE"

Some of my friends knew that my resolutions are to take as many pics as I could and so far it's going well. So to those who didn't, just know that from now on, Ridzwan comes with a camera.

Pictures will do the talk

2009-03-24T07:10:00.000-07:00

A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton

Missed Coldplay gig. And now Rachael Yamagata. I hate it. Ridzwan want to go but apparently serving the nation doesn't do any justice to your spending limit. In other words, Ridzwan got no extra money to spare for the gig. The pay that Ridzwan getting is less than he expected. sigh.

I hate Yana. She sms-ed me right after Coldplay gig ( which she secretly attend) and said that it was the best concert she have attended by far, to quote her expression : "Oh my GOD! ". Thanks Yana.

Today, just had some relationship talk with Diy. I hope everything is ok. There's a hikmah in anything that happen. I guess HE just wants to test you and apparently, HE's not done yet. Which, I think that shows how much HE loves you. Btw, u said something that made me think to0. well, actually not think but proud.haha. I know it's vain but it's not like it's everyday that people think and say that you are wise. Cause to me, someone who's wise means he has grown to be a maturedly responsible, sensible person (which I am doubting cause I don't think I am there yet).

This whole week I am attending Tango course. It's dull and dry. But the good thing is that it's office hours and that means I could slot in sessions with my loved ones : )

So, after work

Mon - Home

Tue - Home

Wed - Meet Yana @ simpang (probably)

Thur - Meet Diy, and probably Fir, Ted, Zam & Dir (Though, I know some of you guys are in camp)

Fri - Go JB with Calvin Klein Underwear people

Sat - Go JB with Family

Sun - HOme & rest!

Does anyone likes theatre show? Arts shows? I need to find a kaki. Do let me know cause now there's alot of shows going on.

Beyonce is definitely prettier than her sis :P

2009-03-16T09:17:00.000-07:00

Where No Endings End - Karen Ann

my fucking brother switched off the fucking plug to my lappy. And all my work that I did for the past fucking 5 hours are gone in just a mere fucking 5 seconds. Now, I am fucking pissed!

13th march @ Ramen Ten

14th march @ timbre

2009-03-08T05:05:00.000-07:00

Play - Matt White

Attachment is over now. On Tue returning back to HTA for some crappy evaluation and then return back to APD. The following day marks the official posting as a PO there. But got to go through a course for 2weeks. And that means office hours people!

Shift work got the best of me. Working in shift 2 ( night to morning) was ain't that bad actually. Depending where you are deployed to. Anyway, I am so bored of work not because its sucks. But my social time are restricted. I missed spending some real quality time with my family, rangers, sexes, Squad 45, the wifes, Diana laiman & Fithri (the duo) my Calvin Klein and Timberland clan. I would be totally worn out after every shift. So I don't get to see my favourite people as often. For now, try my best to grab any opportunity to meet up with all of them. But, I guess I have to adjust to this now cause this is how it's going to be for the next 1year 10 months.

2009-03-01T02:43:00.000-08:00

Video Killed The Radio Star - The President of The United State of America

Attachment are pretty much so mundane. Had a blast with diy,zam, ted & fir on fri at simpang (haha.sorry diy :P ) Awesome. My sexes, we are running our of pics. haha. I have already have something in mind for the next theme for the next shoot*hint*

2009-02-14T09:59:00.000-08:00

Photographs - Nickelback

" It's not always rainbows & butterflies. It's compromise that moves us along"

"..i'm on your side. But i can't spell it out for you cause it's never gonna be that simple. I f you only just realise."

2009-01-31T03:10:00.000-08:00

1,2,3,4 - Plain White Tees

Missing 45 already. Totally hate the feeling of having to say goodbye. But, I will know we will definitely meet again.

ok. So just came back from the airport. Sent Zam to Taiwan. Hope that everything goes well and safe there (insayllah). And definitely looking forward to see you soon and the whole of us shall go Karaoke when you come back, since you have been wanting it for quite sometime. And maybe who knows, I might be meeting you in the Arrival hall, with me, donning my uniform. haha.

I'll be going through a 5 week course for my posting at the Airport divison. 2 of the week will be residential training at HTA. While 2 weeks plus will be my attachment at the airport. So, it ain't that bad actually. Infact, it's pretty good. So Hafiz and Justin, looks like I am going to p.o.c soon than you guys. I think. haha.

Anyway here are some of the pics from Lucas 21st B'day @ timbre, old school.

the birthday boy. opps. man.

2009-01-26T04:15:00.000-08:00

You Make It Real - James Morisson

*sorry have to delete pix*

SQUAD 45

You guys are something special. Will always be.

Will never say goodbye, because I know we will meet again.

Good Luck & Have fun in all your endeavours, lads!

4-5- Co-bras-s-s-s-s!!

Watched Inkheart & Bride Wars today with Diy at Cathay downtown east. Money well spent. Though Inkheart is the kinda movie that is expected of Brendan Fraser, he's character portrayal in the movie couldn't be more excellent. He's a pro in this genre. Helen Miller as always, so sophisticated in this movie despite her character as the girl's aunt who is so uptight and are very very particular about books. She even add in a pinch of humor here and there in the movie.

3.5 out of 5 for Inkheart.

Bride Wars. Definitely one of the best girl-comedy flick I have seen. Kate Hudson and Anne Hathaway make a dynamic duo in this movie. Love it from start to end. Kate is damn sexy. I think I would start fantasizing about her.haha. You can't keep your eyes off her. Her eyes. It's like its looking and talking directly at you, in your seat. But Anne is definitely the kind you will bring home to your parents. Anyway, we are getting off topic here. Watch it, the pranks they played to each other and near the ending, it was kinda sad. But right at the end, it picks up back again.

4 out of 5 For Bride Wars.

Lucas B'day Party tomorrow. Thank god. Really need it.

2009-01-17T22:21:00.000-08:00

Daydreamers - Adele

For the past 2 weeks have been busy. Birthdays after Birthdays. And this week is Sad's 21st B'day. You've got my message, so no point wishing you here right. So, just left Yana who still just a 20 - _ -

P.O.P coming real soon. In like 4 days. These past 4 months plus has been a real roller-coaster ride for me. I have learned & experienced alot. Not only to the extend in being a policemen but also in being a better person and true friend. This time span has made me even much closer to certain people. For a few, it just keeps drifting away. Squad 45 will always be remembered for a very very long time. Bunk 14 - 'Gay bob', Mr.Vege, Hairy Monster, Loudspeaker, Xiao Didi, Emo boy, T.T Durai, Gabs and Mr. Shaolin. Bests Bunk despite of whatever bunk 13 said. We are still the most liveliest (coolest) bunk :) I wouldn't trade anything for my squad.

Gosta Go...

2009-01-03T19:36:00.000-08:00

Sing For You - Tracy Chapman

(this song will make you think back of your loved ones, really *highly recommended*)

the video

A cotton bud got stuck in the same ear, AGAIN! Mom & Dad was so furious but I couldn't be bothered. Anyway, Dee accompanied me to CGH and the doctor gave me ear drops and 'banned' me from using the cotton bud for a week. There you go.haiz.

By the way, Dee surprise me with a B'day card. Hand-made with pictures of all of us. It's so thoughtful. But like I told Dee, that gesture really annoys me cause I don't have my own room to decorate and hang it. So my brothers, please get married or what and get your own house. Really. They are getting lazier day by day and the right now the only cleaning that our room gets is only on every Sat. And that is because I'll be around at home and that I am the only one who can do it.

Booking-In soon. Sucky.

2008-12-26T23:21:00.000-08:00

Halo -Beyonce

This just gave me more reasons to love her. How I wish I could be the guy in the video :)

Turning 21 on 21 was great. Though initially had a misunderstanding with parents, it's resolved and it's all good now. Thank Yous: ( spare me the emotion for the entry today)

Dir,Diy,Zam,Fir,Ted, Thanks for the beautiful Kenneth Cole watch. I was totally down that day, but you guys 'lifted' me up. So much for the voucher.haha. 9 years of friendship. It's like practically we are 'married' to each other. Other than family, I have never had a relationship this long.haha. You guys are special. Like I told Dir before, there are no words that could describe how much I appreciated you guys so much. Though at times, I don't really say/show it. Thanks alot you guys. Really. Now that almost each one of us are at the starting line in building a career, I hope we could end the race together and excel in whatever we hoped to achieve in the beginning. We can't meet this week. Prolly next week alright, during the new year's week. We never said this, ever, but fuck the ego, I love you guys alright :)

To my ever beautiful family, I admit that since NS, I have been spending time with friends more than you guys. But ever since that incident, I realised that no one will stand by me as how you guys did. To my parents, as much as how frustrating you guys made me at times, deep down I truly know your intention. And for that, I love you guys so much. And now, that one of your children is getting engaged, I hope you guys would continue to provide endless love, support and guidance to us. Thanks for the B'Day Dinner treat, the huge 21 B'Day Cake, the cupcakes, the bowling treat, the tops, berms, hong-baos. Now that I am 21, I'll try to be a better man.

To my 'sexes' : Shazryana & Nur Sadrina. Haha. Yana & Sad. I don't even know where to start. All the laughter & joy we shared. Being with you guys is like living in another world. We have been in that world for 4 years and it's still revolving. It's like everytime when I am with you guys, I am in another part of that world, learning and enjoying and savouring each moment. Compared from the first time we met and hang out, we have grown a mile, mentally and emotionally. And maybe physically (the hair - __ - haha). N I can't wait to 'travel' with you guys to the next destination :) It was quite a pleasant B'Day surprise that day after the dinner. Thanks for that oh-so-creamy-powdery-chocolatey cake from Swiss Bakery. ANYTHING that has got to do with delicious chocolate, i will lose for sure.

Last but not least. My 'Wifes' : Ayu, Lina & Lyn. Finally we got to meet yesterday except for Lyn. We could talk about our poly life like forever. Being in the same course, same class and same group for all the projects together for 3 years, that would be more than enough experience for us to share for the rest of our lives. We should consistently meet up for regular makan cum movie outing. *popeyes*. Thanks for the B'Day movie treat at The Cathay & B'day dinner treat at Swensen. That's one hell of a chocolate dinner for me. Next time, we have to drag sherlyn with us.

So bascially, my life revolve around these 4 groups of beautifully interesting people, who to me, is a gift from Allah. And thats is why they will always have a special place in me.

To my crazy lads of Squad 45, thanks for the well-wishes. Especially Bunk 14, thanks for the pizza :) Not forgetting Diana, Sakinah, Intan, Shobi, Surianti and Yaya for the wishes too.

On another subject, went to CGH A&E yesterday night cause a cotton bud was stuck in my ear. My mom has warned me like a million time not to dig it too deep. But as stubborn as i was, I did it anyway. In the end, the bud was out and a cream was given to me for my ear as there were some skin infection. And you know what's the best part? It's free beacuse I am a NS man. Well, finally, I am starting to see the benefit in serving the nation.haha

I need to get the new CD from Brett Anderson & The Verve.

2008-12-14T01:16:00.000-08:00

Love Lockdown - Kanye West

Celebrated Dir's 21st B'day last week. And 'The Stuff' was actually baking cupcakes for him. Went to Diy's house to bake it. After celebrate it at Botanic Garden, we went to have dinner at Pizza Hut, all courtesy of Miss Diyana Harun :)

Parents have been a little off with me this week, thanks to one of them(BROTHERS). These past weeks, things at house has been negative and at times I couldn't be bothered. Thankfully on Friday, Elmy & Sham called to go and join them, go Mustafa Centre and supper. Timing couldn't be better. But yet again, they have to make it hard for me to go. Eventually, I did leave to escape from all these negativity in the house. All these stuff happens prior to being 21. And the funny thing is that it was the same situation during my 20th.

Lina's bro wedding settings was beautiful. Really.Your mom said yours is next. When? haha.

Road-call at 8.30pm. An hour earlier. sigh.

Friends of mine surprised me with a gift that I totally never expected. haha.

still feeling the lost. Strength : 38...always.

2008-12-06T18:13:00.000-08:00

Coming Around - Travis

Exactly a week, it has been, since the lost of a good friend of mine. A squadmate, A buddy, A Brother. Syukur, his funeral & burial went smoothly. Seeing him for the last time really breaks me down. Finally it really hit me, hard. In a blink, life can turn you around 180, and before you know it, the curtain closes and it's over for you.

Right now, I am at the point of my life where I feel greatful to be surrounded by positive people who cares for me. But at some moments, I felt like I didn't appreciate them more than they deserve.

Life have to move on. Thanks to all who were there to bear with me.

Met Diy today to get some stuff for tomorrow. And thankfully the stuff that we intended to do, turn out well. Can't say what it's for now.

To all muslim, Selamat Hari Raya Haji.

2008-11-29T23:48:00.001-08:00

Vitamin C -Graduation Song (Friends Forever)

Though knowing you for just more than 2 months, you have made it feel like we are friends for more than that. But little did I know that Allah has his plans. I am going to feel the lost of a great buddy. And insyallah, Allah akan memberkati roh-mu, my friend. Amin.

2008-11-28T06:24:00.000-08:00

Run - Leona Lewis

I am so damn exhausted. The commute has always been a bitch during office hours and will always be. I stood all the way from Chua Chu Kang to Tampines, then I was bale to get to sit.

In around 2 more months, I am going to POP. The feeling's great but for sure I am gonna miss those lads. Lots of tests are coming soon and honestly, I am not ready for it.

I splurge on CDs again. I just can't stop. My parents been nagging at me, to throw away all my magazines collection of more than 200, in my huge drawer, to make room for my CDs. And as a 'thoughtful' son I am always is, I told them I ain't going to throw it cause I need it for future investment :)

Do any ladies out there want to 'abuse' my Tangs B'day privileges cause they sent me special discounts on mostly cosmetics discount? Do let me know so u can use my card.

Listened to Leona's version of Run, originally sang by Snow Patrol. Though Leona's voice is so soothing, Snow Patrol got the feel of the song that listeners could relate to. Listen and watch the video at youtube. She look damn hot in the video, I Liiiikkkeeee :P

Turning 21 next month

2008-11-14T05:31:00.001-08:00

Taylor

Cough.Fever.Flu.

Fri (Rest at home)
Sat (Sentosa with Yana, Sad & Malik)

Sun (Tipah's Sis Wedding ; meet up with the friends of 9 years :P & book-in - _ -)

Menacing

2008-11-07T09:27:00.001-08:00

Homecoming - Kanye West feat Chris Martin

Obama, yes you can. Change.

~photo-session tommorow ~

2008-11-02T00:27:00.000-07:00

If there's a rocket, tie me to it - Snow Patrol

I promised myself to not be spending on anything till Iget my NS pay. But somehow, I ended up spending almost to $100 on CDs at HMV. I hate HMV as it's overpriced. But they seem to have a better selection of albums compared to other CD shops. Well atleast I support originality. So yeah. No more spending till the 12th. I pledge :)

Booking-in soon. And it's raining. It just give me more reasons to hate to go to camp. But I get to spend the next 5 days with the crazy lads. So it ain't that bad.

Someone please tell me how I could save $. I mean I have signed up for the MYSAVINGS account with POSB but, I want more. Like steps to be discipline in managing your money in the bank.

Can't upload pics now cause Blogger is having it's pms now - _-

2008-10-31T07:52:00.000-07:00

Bixby Canyon Bridge - Death Cab For Cutie

Read today's New Paper Headline about a teacher who wore skimpy bikini and posted it on her blog and sparked debate. There it goes again. Teachers boiling up something and getting the public attention. Things like this are to be keep discreet and even if they wanted to go public through writing it or posting it in her blog, there are measures that they could apply like installing a password to prevent any unauthorised view & comments.

Life's is practically revolve around rules and regulations that are created by The Man, who actually disobey it himself.

After book-out today, went to have dinner at KFC and felt like vomiting after eating it. My body seems to be adjusting to liking the Mess Food than the regular-fast-food-chain restaurant that I often patronise to. And I am hating it!

Pretty much I don't have much to say cause I am just tired and my mind are literally blank right now. Last book-out been spending so much time outside that I forget about the people at home. Mom, I hope you are getting better and I really love you.

Anyways, here's some pics from the last week outing.

Death Cab for Cutie new album was quite a disappointment to me (I'll follow you to the dark still mesmerized me - _-). But The Script really surprised me with their sounds.

2008-10-24T02:31:00.000-07:00

I am Yours - The Script

Ok. I am here for the first time since like what, 3 weeks ago. Time dosen't permit me to do updates. You know, with the confinement and involvement with the 'New Balance Real Run' thingy.

NS is going extremely well for me lately. Bonding with the squadmates was the ultimate satisfaction. Great dudes with interesting background but share a common purpose. I am actually beginning to love NS. Well definitely there's some minor rough edges here and there. But as a squad and matured adults, we talked it out. 3 more months till POP. Somehow, something in me says that I am gonna miss these crazy lads. Well, I guess time will tell.

This weekend booking out is the best. Meeting the lads later (which I am already late for), then tommorow meeting my special friends of 9 years (you know who you are) and then on Sun, meeting my sexes for some shopping 'spree'.

On the next book out, I would love to set aside time for my 'wifes' and my collegues at Timberland and CKU. It's been like ages guys.

Sad till now still owe me photoshoot session and my portfolio is still not yet updated. WTH. Btw Sad, have u print out the photos that you took when you, me and fad went to watch Tropic Thunder? Please send to me alrtiez! Merci luv!

Chiao People.

2008-09-19T07:44:00.000-07:00

Matt White - Love

I am bored with NS. My first IPPT test is on wednesday. Somehow the day before that, we had swimming lessons. How to pass???

I have been pushing myself physically these past few days. Running to the extend of not being able to breathe sometimes. Literally. Then all those push-ups and crunches that they want us to do right after doing 2.4KM run. And if we didn't do it right, they will bloody murder scream at us. The outcome of these is that I break fast. 4 days. At 8.30am, I am hydrated as hell. I sweat alot. Really alot. My top is literally soak in sweat every time during P.T amd my face was 'showered' with it too. But I hope HIM will understand. Anyways, I lost 5 kg this past 9 days. Woohoo!

somehow, one the days, I do felt home-sick. yeah, I do. Prolly I miss my mom so much. I worry about her being alone at home.

One thing good about NS is that I am not 'allowed' or given any doors to spend our money. So, me without spending money uneccesarily, I get to save up. This end of the month, I am getting my Timberland pay, then 2 days later, CK underwear pay, then 1st Oct, GST allowance, and then 11 days later my first NS pay of 1 and half month pay. hehe.

Next Friday, meeting Yana and Sad probably after buka cause I am booking out at 5.30pm and I need to go back first to change and shower. Then the next day, meeting Diy, Fir, Dir, Zam and he rest to go buka together. Hopefully no changes huh!

I have been talking alot about NS cause you know that's the only thing that is going on with my life right now. So it's boring at some point of time, then you know how I feel about NS at times.

Nothing but love for them :)

2008-09-13T03:45:00.000-07:00

Andai Ku Tau - Ungu

I know I said many times that I am not a big FAN of the malay music scene. But this song has such a sincere message. To my malay friends, if you able to read the lyrics, you know what I meant.

OK. Hi loves! Yeap! I am back this weekend. Initially wasn't suppose to but due to Ramadan, we get to go out this weekend, at an earlier time somemore. Then, we get to go teraweh. Plus, all muslims are to report back to HTA on the day of walk-in by 10pm instead of 9.30 pm. Great or what!

How NS? well, my hands and arms are suffering from severe discomfort and pain.

My squad mates. Well, what can I said, for now it's really easy to get along with them. In my intake, the only people that I recognise was sajid, hyqel's brother, and Shaikh. Then , I saw Fahmy putra, Nazher & Fandi who are my senior trainee. To recollect the past 4 days and hearing all those talks, I am actually looking forward for the rest of the training or/and activities that they have install for us. Well except the physical training of push-ups. haha. Abit here, push-up.Abit-there, push-up. I am excited about the night classes, the basic defence traning, pistol training and such. This coming week, Dir & Fir are going to be in HTA to go through a 6 month sergent course. Kudos (Congrats) to them. Hopefully, jangan pulak besar kepala bila da jadi sergent.

.oh and I just want to say to my friends & collegues, MISS YOU GUYS! Arriverderci! I AM BALD (MANGKUK!)

In cubicle of Singapore Flyer. Not Club.haha

2008-09-07T02:11:00.000-07:00

Just Stand Up - Various Artist

me: "Cut Hair"

Aunty : " ok. Have a sit. What haircut you want?"

me: "Ermm. Short but no too short ot too long. "

Aunty give confused look

me:" You have magazine for me to show?"

Aunty: "Men's magazine? Nope."

me: "ouh.ok. then cut my hair slope."

Aunty: "But slope like NS boy hor?"

me:"never mind la aunty. I am going in this Tuesday anyway."

Aunty smile :)

To Dir & Zam, congragulates on finishing your BMT. And now, it's my turn.

STAND UP TO CANCER. SUPPORT.

2008-09-06T01:18:00.000-07:00

Love - Matt White

Gosh! 2 more days and that's it for me. Didn't get to meet my favourite people : Dir, Diy,Fir, Zam ,Ted, Yana, Lina, Ayu Sherlyn for the last time. It's ok. Anyways, just to let you guys know that on my first and second week of booking out, I am not free for either of you guys cause I want to be at home and help out my mom in the preparation of Raya. Do kueh, kemas rumah and stuff. So, till then see you guys.

A little shout out to my 'beary' friend, Diyana Binte Harun. Happy 21st !

*p.s. - i know you hate this pix but i find it nice and 'beary' haha! kids

2008-09-03T06:39:00.000-07:00

Your Still The One - Shania Twain

Yesterday was my last working day for both Timberland & Calvin Klein Underwear. But it was a hectic last 2 days. I was totally worn out after work that I didn't reply to any of the SMSes i received or bothered to read till the next day. Sorry Sad & Dir.

I had the best of what I could possibly get. Thanks to my wonderfully crazy colleagues for giving me a meaningful working experience and many many hugs loves and thanks to all of my dearest friends for filling me with so much content, joy, inspiration and love. Lastly, I owe my life to family. If it weren't for them, I will not be here.

I am going to serve the nation in less than a week. One thing that got me worried is not that I am afraid of NS. Instead, I am afraid of how it could affect my social life. Basically, I am afraid that in my 2 years, I am gonna 'lose' my friends that I have right now as I wouldn't be spending much time with them. I don't want to be phase out and be left behind. Maybe I am being neurotic or thinking too much but that doesn't mean that it couldn't happen. I just hope for the best for now.

I can't upload photos of Tioman and Singapore Flyer outing due to stupid blogger connection fucked up something. Maybe on the next entry.

Happy FASTING to all my muslim friends :)

2008-08-27T03:43:00.000-07:00

Love Arcade - Party

Last Saturday, went to Southern Ridges with Diy,Zam, Ted and 2 of his friends, Fir, Lu Ayy and gf. It was raining heavily when we were on the way to Harbour Front. At that point of time, Diy and me were thinking of a Plan B cause the rain doesn't seems to show any sign of deteriorating. Zam and Ted and Fir were hungry, so we decided to go to KFC instead. Lu Ayy and gf came and met us there. We sat there for like an hour making jokes about Lu Ayy being Mr.Barney ("Hey Kawan-Kawan!"). Eventually the rain did stop to a drizzle and we decided to go ahead with it. Once were drop off from the bus, I saw the Henderson Waves Bridge. It was pretty high up. The next thing I saw was these group of stairs that was leading us up to the bridge. I started to complained - to myself. Ted started off being the first one to jog up and indeed, in the end, a quarter from the start point, he was out of breath. And so were we by the time we reached ONLY the starting point of the bridge. We walked to and back and forth. Then we end up at the top of Mount. Faber. By the time it was late evening and the view there was absolutely worth it. Some Singaporeans (and that includes me..haha) complained about Singapore being a no-show tourist spot for us singaporeans. Basically we said that there's nothing for Singaporeans to enjoy here in Singapore and that Singapore is boring and costly. Well, actually this trip prove me wrong, partially. haha. But Singapore is still a very costly place for us to live in. Right?! I just like to say that part of the reason I am looking forward for that day outing was that I thought I get to meet up with a close, good friend of mine, Dir. Have not see him for more than 3 months now. But eventually he was not able to come. I'll just leave it as it is.

Anyway, after alot of picture taking, we decided to head to Cityhall to catch the fireworks. By the time, all of us were pratically tired. So, Diy suggested to take Cable Car and I am so thrilled cause it's only the second time I took it. The last times was when I was 9years-old. Me, Ted, Zam and Fir were in one cabin. Lu Ayy and gf and 2 of ted frens are in the other cabin. Fir and Ted were trying to scare me and Diy by standing up in the cabin whilst it was moving. Fir was irritating the most at that time. HAHA. He was like moving and shaking the cabin. Come on, you are like 15th to 20th floor above the ground. Of course you won't entertain this kinda crap right? haha. ingat fir! haha! We took loop around sentosa and drop off at Harbour Front. And head off to Cityhall. We thought the Fireworks were over or postpone cause it was still drizzling. By the time we reached Fullerton, the fireworks started just in time. Great Display of Fireworks this year. When it ended, Diy and Lu Ayy and gf went back. Me, Fir, Zam and Ted slack around Esplanade while waiting for the crowd to lessen. I went off then to meet my parents to head down to Mustapha S.C.

Yesterday, went to J.B. with parents to buy Baju Kurong. I seriously don't have the mood to celebrate Hari Raya this year. Don't ask me why. At the same time got myself my toiletries because it's cheaper there. Saw Linah at J.B too, with her parents. twice. haha.

I got myself a Seagate External Hardrive of 160GB for $114.90 . Cheaper than the other store that i visited. Some went as high as $149. So it's pretty good deal right. And now, I am at peace whenever my brother use my Lappy (lately, it seems like it has been his) cause my files ( pictures exactly) are now back-up. Finally. Thanks Diy for the help! :)

Today, i ate 35 pieces of Hershey nuggets Dark Chocolate Truffle. I finished off the whole pack. haha. And I am sooo content and happy and satisfied. I do hope sex are exactly the same as eating chocolate, or so some people had said that before.

Tioman pics is much more alot than these. So, I am just gonna upload it next time. But here's a little preview.haha

2008-08-22T10:05:00.000-07:00

Lucky - Jason Mraz feat Colbie Calliat

I am back from Tioman. And man!, it was an awesome trip. Going on a trip, it's not about the place your heading that is most important. It's the people that you are going with. And I truly enjoyed my 3d2n at Tioman with my 'sexes' and Fadly. I got darker and my face are having breakouts due to the extreme heat. But it's worth it. Going Snorkeling was the peak of the trip. Clear blue sea, beautiful fishes and beautiful scenery. Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful. Somehow, i felt like a spoiler cause I kept rushing Yana, Sad & Fad to hurry up for something. Afraid that we are gonna miss the boat and whatsoever. Yana like to kick people in bed like how she likes to kick me when we are in Tioman. Right Yana? Tioman excites me alot that I accidentally kicked Fadly bald head. I was damn shocked. We were suppose to climb down this metal thing to go into the sea. Instead of letting Fad let go of it, I quickly turn over my leg and hit his head. hehe. Sorry Fad. The next trip with the sexes would be Bangkok. Probably in 1 year. Photos of the trip will be post next time cause I can't stand the lagging of blogspot in uploading photos.

I wish to go overseas with my another favourite cliques : Diy, Fir, Zam, Ted, Dir n all. We should go somewhere too :) Anyway, will be meeting them tomorrow to go to Southern Ridges ( the longest bridge in singapore? ) and then head down to Esplanade to catch the fireworks. Bet tomorrow night, the commutes gonna be a 'bitch'.

As the NS day draws near, I am scheduling myself to be busy on everyday with having to do something and anything I want such as exercise regime (yeah, right?!), meeting friends, late supper with colleagues, etc, before I am being deprived of this freedom.

I noticed that I like to make people panic for no apparent reason. Liked how I smsed Zie asking where Elise stay as there was a fire coming from her area. And as it turns out, it was fire from JB PETROL Tank ( yup, I can see it from Pasir Ris. No lie.) It came out in the news that early night but I only noticed it later.Waaadaa!

Listen to these 2 sing is like an orgasm to my ears.

Beautiful Song.

Truly don't regret buying Jason Mraz CD.

*atleast listen to half of the song

2008-08-05T01:13:00.000-07:00

My All - Mariah Carey

I am left with a month till I am being tied down by the government to serve the nation. By force. Yet, there's still so so so much to do. I am really looking forward for the Tioman trip and the Southern Ridges explore. Somehow there's something in me that says that I am looking forward for NS. I don't know. Probably because I won't be able to go out as much as I can and that means I got to save $. So, we'll see later, when I am in. It's feel like forever when you want things to end fast but it feels like seconds when you want things to last. It's so unfair.

Went to JB after work last Saturday with Calvin Klein collegues. 8 of us went but we ordered for twice the size of 8 people eating. So we occupied 3 tables. Effa ordered quite as much and it seems like are one greedy bastards. After makan, we went to Pasar Borong and man, it's still open even after 1am. Damn, there's life there! I got back home around 5.30am. Then the next day met Diy, Ted and Fir and watched The Mummy at Vivo. I thought after the 2nd instalment of The Mummy, this one is gonna be really bad but no! It was as great as the first & second. Not bad! I want to watch love guru! Watch Jessica Alba danced hindi. It was hilarious! Go watch it at YouTube.

Aint't it cute, Sad?

use Loreal, it works & face it, you're worth it! haha

I just missed my long hair, thats all.

Adios!

2008-07-28T04:42:00.000-07:00

Lost! - Coldplay

Had the most stupidest yet weirdest dream yesterday. A dinosaur, T-rex to be exact, was attacking the city of Pasir Ris. Me and my neighbours were running all over the area tyring to find a safe spot to hide. We went up the stairs and the T-rex saw us and came after us. Breaking the wall just so that He could eat us. But was unable to break it. I was scared for life. Playing hide and seek to avoid the T-rex. Then I heard someone yell "Get-up! Get- up! You need to buy Sawi vegetable". Opened my eyes, it was my mom -_- Disrupting my T-rex dream. I guess I'll never know the end to that T-rex dream. But yeah.

Dedicate to all those who believe in love :)

2008-07-17T00:38:00.000-07:00

Violet Hill -Coldplay

3 Days off. Woohoo! The idea of working just doesn't worked for me now. I mean, I am left with few days before enlisting and there are alot of things that I want to do/accomplish before I am being 'chained' by the government for 2 years. And that doesn't include working (but I need the extra money).

Met the wifes : Sherlyn, Lina & Ayu for dinner at Popeyes at Airport yesterday. We were 'lost' locating the restaurant, when actually, we have been there for like more than twice. All Thanks to Miss new-Airport girl, Nurlinah Binte Misron. She led us to the wrong terminal. I love them. We are still goofy and 'selenge' as before. Movies together soon ok!

Sadrina & Yana has been dropping by my work place quite often (is often the right word?). sweet of them. I try to msg you guys often ok. And we will meet up every week (anyway, that is what we do always..haha). LUGE LUGE LUGE!

Things I want to do before 9 September:

meet up the 'wifes'
meet up the 'sexes'
meet up the 'rangers'
club (maybe)
photo shoots (for portfolio)
exercise regime
Pizzahut with Calvin Klein Underwear & Timberland staff
JB makan with Calvin Klein Underwear staff
Explore Southern Ridges Bridge with 'Rangers'
Luge & Outing at sentosa
Watch movie with 'wifes', 'rangers' & 'sexes' (for the last time)

Things to do becoming & after 21 years-old:

Open up POSB MY SAVINGS Account (done)
Take up Driving licence
Master French Language, sign up for course
Design Portfolio
Photography Portfolio

These is what I want to achieve. But yet again, we plan, god decide.

2008-07-08T09:35:00.000-07:00

Live High - Jason Mraz

Am I a bad friend?

Am I someone who is self-centred & selfish?

Am I someone who that so arrogant?

Am I?

2008-07-05T03:24:00.000-07:00

Melt The Snow - Shayne Ward

Sitting at home is what I do during my off day. I hate my social life. It's deteriorating. Supposed to be going out with Yana & Sad for Sentosa, luge ride. But Yana had to cancelled it cause she's sending her aunt to the airport. Henceforth, here I am at home. Going out with the parents soon and then watch Hancock with them and Fir, Zam and Ted. Yea, my life - so, 'happening'. Ouh, and i've got 3 invitations to go clubbing. haha. What do you know, I am not a party animal!!

(luge ride, Singapore Flyer, Cycling, Jogging, Club (huh?!), Badminton, Chill & Makan Quest)

Still missing my 'wifes' , Rangers and my 'Sexes' and my loyang classmates :)

Sherlyn, Ayu & Lina (I miss you guys so badly :( ! )

Adios!

2008-06-12T01:56:00.000-07:00

Best Days - Matt White

This are one of the few songs that will always keeps me smile :) ALWAYS.

*atleast listen till the chorus and you know what i mean*

2008-06-08T07:14:00.000-07:00

Rockferry - Duffy

I am so tired of working. Right now all I could think of is just go sightseeing. ANYWHERE. I don't care. I want to go luge. Go Zoo. Go Dempsey. Go smoke seesha. Go to this new long bridge somehwhere at macritchie. Want to do all this. But just can't find the time to do so.

Speaking of time, I have less than 3 months before I have to wear the blue uniform. Some of good close friends are going in real soon. Dir & Zam, have fun in ns ok (for real). Fithri in 1 month time. Hyqel & Nazher this coming week. Yihao (still can't help but laugh at your teenage pix) this friday.

Working at Timberland is great. The job. staff. pay. But right now I just don't feel like working. But then again who's going to give me the money for my own expenses. And yesterday, had a good long talk with my parents at Changi beach. Telling me everything about savings and future. I want to be able to one day, send them off to a holiday for them to relax after all these years working hard for the family (which my siblings have yet to be thankful for). Right now, I am not sure of what's instore for me in future. I mean, I don't know to continue school or find a full time job or what. I am not certain is all I could say now.

I still can't make calls n send sms. So if i owe anyone a reply msg or a b'day msg or a call back, you know. Diy, Ayu, Derrick, Dir, Danny, Faliq, Ted. Sorry guys :) :)

I want to go on a vacation ( doesn't have to be overseas actually). Just spend good times with friends and family i singapore. Somehow, I wish.....

I still have pics to show. 'Graduation' & 'Sex & the city'. Hope to see Dir,Zam,Diy,Fir,Ted, Man, Fai, Tipah, Lu Ayy, Fithri,Dee, Sad,Yana, Lina,Sherlyn & Ayu before i go in.K bye.

I am happy to make them proud. My parents have been always my life support and I hope to be thiers in future :) Love them

2008-05-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

Always Be My Baby - David Cook

Tomorrow is the day I am seeing for the very last time of my long hair. I miss you hair. Waahaa!

Today was the last day that I am working for CK Underwear. Time to move on for a better paid job. It was kinda sad though. 8 months I've been working for the company and it is by far, the longest job I have held. The collegues are generally really fun to work with.

Dir & Zam are enlisting really soon. In 2 weeks actually. Any plans to go out before you guys ride off( or should i say shore off) to boot camp??

I have not see (and go out with) these dear friends of mine for a long time actually - Zam, Dir,Fir, Diy,Lu Ayy, Ted,Dee,Fithri, Ayu, Lina & Sherlyn.

I can't seem to get the fact out of my head that I am cutting my hair as I am typing these entry. Sorry.

Graduation was awesome. Camera Flashes everywhere. Parents were proud of their children. Am I am happy that my parents are there to be one of them. The graduation marks another important day of my life and I am fortunate to share it with the people I love.

Meeting my 'sexs' tomorrow for another day of outing. Tick tock tick tock (madonna)!

Random pictures from random times:

2008-05-20T05:01:00.000-07:00

Better In Time -Leona Lewis

It feels damn fucked up whenever you starts to feel lonely and it turns worst when at that moment you witness couples spending 'love' time. You start to think how much you are worth and where you stand in the game of love. In remedy of this, I spent time alone with myself after work (orchard), put on sad love songs and played it over and over again till I have reached somerset mrt station and then board the train from there. That's it.My Remedy - Leona & Colbie (thanks for the songs)

Back to reality. I have got another job at Timberland and starting on June. I am not quitting my current job at CK but I am prioritising Timberland. I just couldn't stand being ill-treated. Well, not literally ill-treated. Just that the benefits as a part-timer in that company is pathetic. In a professional way of saying ; the amount that I am being paid doesn't justify the amount of work that I am doing. And the BM at CK is very bias. She's just plain ugly and nasty in any way that anyone could describe her way of working. Plus, she's really really poor in staff relationship & welfare management. Anyway Timberland is offering better pay, so I go for the best offer.

Im cutting the 'locks' by the end of this month. That's a certain (after smsing everyone for opinion). But I can't seem to choose what hair cut. So here, Which?

left or right ?

hopes life get's better in time for me :)

2008-05-08T21:41:00.000-07:00

The Little Things - Colbie Calliat

I really LOVE Colbie Calliat songs. Call me freaky but it doesn't bother me cause I could personally feel connected to her songs, emotionally. Amazing singer. The little things sang by her, got me weeping instantly.

Went to CATHAY DOWNTOWN EAST with Zam, Ted and Fir the other day. Downtown east can now be a quick getaway for me to enjoy decent leisure time. From movies to bowling to arcade to pool to even GELARE! ..

I love spending time with YANA & SAD. You guys know what I am talking about right. Crazy stuff we do. TICK TOCK TICK TOCK, MADONNA.... We go somewhere this month ok. Plan Plan.

Ouh and KITE RUNNER is so god damn fucking good book man! Thanks Lina. I miss spending time with sherlyn, lina & ayu.sigh.

2008-05-02T07:41:00.000-07:00

Mercy - Duffy

I am going to POLICE ACADEMY ya'll.

songs that got me addicted:

Adele - Make You Feel My Love
Colbie Calliat - This Little Thing & Realize
Mariah Carey - My All & Bye Bye
Duffy - Mercy (kinda makes u feel sexy..the beat i meant)

2008-04-21T00:44:00.000-07:00

4 minutes - Madonna feat Justin Timber(daki) & Timbaland

Graduation ceremony in exactly one month's time. But somehow I am not so excited about it. Don't ask why cause I don't know why. haah! I've been spending more time with family these past few weeks, even right after work. I am slowly making effort to spend more time with friends and family (which is my this year resolution) and I think I am making a slight progress :)

Time with family : going JB tmrw, countless late nights dinner stake-out

Time with sec sch friends : Swensen dinner, Bowling at ECP, movie (maybe)

Time with Poly friends: -nil- (we should plan something soon ok. make yourself free, especially LINAH & AYU)

Wanna ask you guys something. Do you remember the time when you were a backstreet boys fan? How you will quickly run to the radio or TV to get close to it to listen n sway n groove to thier song? Then you and your siblings will argue which one you guys want to be. Remember those times. Those around my age, will probably reminisce and laugh or smile it out at the thought of it. I (we) grow up listening to them, spice girls, Aqua and even Britney spears. At that time, none iron maiden or punk rock, or emo or indie or R&B that we listen to. Things change now. Anyway let's take a trip back to memory lane shall we? Listen & watch these songs by Backstreet Boys and ask yourself this : Is 'nowadays' songs better and cooler or is these old school-songs just getting more and more embarassingly stupid as the days goes by?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1KdkQv0FfI&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ekL1HzsX99Y&feature=user

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8o-i1exXUO0

(beyonce's nephew)

2008-04-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

Stop & Stare - One Republic

Just got back from dinner with family at Naked Fish Shoppe at The Grassroots Club. Basically it's a halal version of Fish & Co. But I think Fish & Co. is still the best in terms of its selection of dishes and service. It's not that Naked Fish Shoppe has bad service but it's just that people at Fish & Co. are more cheery and friendly. But Naked Fish Shoppe has the amazing Chocolate Fondule and Sambal Baked Stingray I have tasted. Darn good, matey! I didn't take any pix so just go to thier website to see the complete menu : www.thenakedfishshoppe.com.sg

Well. Haidir and Nizam is going to serve the nation (army) in Jun. So thats left me stranded. Been hearing alot of people are going in in a month plus time but not me. When sia? was hoping during september though. Police.Police.Police.

Haidir, if ada rezeki kau then, insyallah kau dapat masuk police. Wish kau all the best.

Who said, money doesn't comes easily. It does. I am talking about the GST Offset Package. So happy to know that I am receiving $500. Though is little but somehow I am fortunate and relief.whoopie. Wonderland are calling me!

Make You Feel My Love by Adele. This isn't her official video for the song cause she had none. But I want you guys to listen to it. Some might say it sounds really boring but just love her lyrics. Love her voice :)

tunning away

2008-04-12T06:45:00.000-07:00

My All -Mariah Carey

Dan, Nor, Wendy, Jaslyn, Sean, Nurul, Kelly, Wendy Koh, Nada, Zack, Zho Xin - PR can never be more fun :) :)

There's alot of events coming up, like Graduation Ceremony, Bowling , Swensen Dinner. Can't wait. Ouh, btw, I been knowing some people who are going to Bangkok really soon. Ouh Holidays!

Ok it's 10.30 pm now and i've go to go meet Dir, Lu Ayy and all. But can't be too long though cause meeting Yana (love! love!) tomorrow to accompany her buy bottoms. Btw, I am left with $45 in my wallet. How did that happen? Gonna hear the 5 letters from me really soon when everytime anyone ask me to go out. That is - B.R.O.K.E whooopie!!!!

2008-04-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

Come By Me - Harry Connick Jr.

Ok. You guys might have heard it on net or papers that BEYONCE IS MARRIED TO JAY-Z. Baik ar. Kudos. Let's just say, im depressed that I am eating 4 meals today and I am still hungry. haha. Nah. Kidding. Infact, I am happy for her. Love You :)

Im so irritated by a collegue. I am feeling like there's no boundaries and space for me to breath. Urgh! Even during my off day, still want to bother me. Space!Space!Space!

Lately, my ears are not immune to old and 'weird' songs. I don't know why, but I have been listening to Mariah Carey's My All and various songs from Jazz singer, Harry Connick Jr (especially 'Come By Me' - the song is so cherry and light and happy-go-lucky song, whatever that means. You could practically swayed yourself. cool). So yeah. Old School never dies.

2008-04-06T06:37:00.000-07:00

The More We Possess, The Less We Own Ourselves - Brett Anderson

Took up almost a month for me to update. Been working straight for these past 3 weeks. Missed out on wedding invitations, birthday chalets, slacking sessions. Trying to slot in free time to pleasure myself with 'luxuries' that I have been deprived from lately, such as sleeping, eating my heart out. The only thing that I have got to indulge on these few days is reading this book, 'The Chocolate Run' from Dorothy Komson (same author who wrote 'My best friends' girl'). Other than that my life has been a routine - wake up.bath.prep myself. go work.come back work.sleep.

Guess a month of the same thing would probably made me go insane. I need a life, man! Other than that i was able to have mini meet-up with Diy and chat for awhile because she was around my house area for tuition. Then, some conversation with Dir on the phone, a few exchanges of SMSes with other close friends. Preety much that's it.

I think Ayu is mad at me for constantly 'attacking' her about thin n all. Aku promise aku tak kacau kau ok :) Lina & Sherlyn, I want to go cycling with you guys and play board games. Yana & Sad, my two 'sex', I wanna go whacky with you guys again - take stupid pictures. And most importantly, Zam, Dir, Diy, Fir, Lu Ayy, Ted, Man (been missing). My friends who have stood by me after all these past 8 years plus. Words can't describe how much I literally miss them. Some things have changed I guessed. But no matter what, we all will try to make it last alright. I will make myself free on the 26th. Insyallah. Penned down some outingswith my close friends.

Now I'am starting to see the importance of a understanding, loving, caring Family & Close Friends. Grip on to every oppurtunity you have before it slips away. Just know where your responsibility lies.

2008-03-15T01:34:00.000-07:00

What's Good With You - Beyonce

-SKINNY IS THE NEW FAT-

It's hideous.Uncomfortable and Disgusting to look at. Can be scary at times too.

I was in the MRT heading towards home from work yesterday when I saw this lady who was about to board the train. She had quite an attractive face though her cheek were slightly 'sunken'. But as the person in front of her shift away, I literally widened my eyes. Not because she had nice boobs or curvy body, but instead, it's the opposite of that. I will dare to circumcise again if I lie - But, I am not. Her hand size looks exactly like her bones. Infact, I think it's her bones covered entirely by just her skin. No visual presence of any meat. Fats? Well, don't even bother about asking if she has any. When she moves towards the side to lean against the glass, facing sideways in front of me, I could see her collarbone sticking out rather than her breast. What made it worst is that she wore a dress. A poverty African lady will look more prettier and healthier standing beside her or that a new born infant is much healthier than her. The MRT metal pole looks much meatier than her hands. This really do disgust me. Everyone in the train were looking at her. Attention for the wrong reasons.

And that is when it hit me that being skinny is not right. Being toned that is. TONED is the key. Not BONE. Mishca Barton,Kate Moss & Nicole Richie is some of the most numbingly ugly skinny looking celebrities I have ever seen and yet, sadly, there are girls who still idolising them for their 'skinny-ness'. Just SAD.

You can look skinny but toned (like Giselle Bundchen & Jennifer Garner & Jesccia Alba) or curvy but toned (like Beyonce & Jennifer Lopez) or masculine but toned (like Jesscia Biel). So ladies, please think twice before putting that toothbrush and choking and forcing yourself to vomit after every meal.Not Healthy but filthy instead.

I used to think that skinny people are 'cool' and look good in anything they wear. But after yesterday, not anymore I am. It freak me out and I am worried that one day, anyone of my female friends might look like that.

It's all about balancing not starving.

I still remember Ayu kept saying she's fat when actually she's not and kept complaining she have big thighs. I think Loner can't be your BF because he's skinny and everyday you will always compete with him, seeing who has the skinniest thigh -_- And Ayu, why are you getting skinner day by day? Don't lah! Sad been telling me not to bother you and never to tease you. And Lina, is right I guess. Me and Ayu would always like to piss each other off. haha! -_- ...ok.i bet ayu's going to take her fathers car and knock me down.haha.Sherlyn will always be the quiet one (sometimes..haha!) and she's one of the healthy skinny friends I have :) . Yana- can never be bored with her. I love and miss you ladies :)

Ladies, what do you gals look for in wedding gowns/dresses?

Vera Wang. Help me!!!

Pencil.set.Design.

- SKINNY IS THE NEW FAT -

2008-03-06T01:48:00.000-08:00

I Wanna Hold Your Hand - The Beatles

"It's tacky and cheap shot! "

I love these past few days. Just been slacking around at home. Gotten myself full-complete hours of sleep and wake up with a smile stretch from one ear to another. Like as though i had great sex the nights before.

My cravings for Dir's Nasi Sambal Goreng has been full filled last Monday.Thanks Dir.

My 2nd brother has completed his 2 years of National Service most of it was spent at the Infantry or whatsoever. His ORD ceremony was short and simple. But the reception sucks - the food, i meant. Took some pictures but wish not to put it in here.

As much as i love to stay there longer, my parents and I wanted to leave quickly to avoid the massive traffic jam at woodlands Checkpoint (they wanted to go JB, whatelse). And boy were we right. Thanks to Mas Selamat, the checkpoint has been intensified. Not only at woodlands checkpoint but also within Singapore where he would possibly be located at. It was funny the other day me and Yana were talking about the possibility of him escaping and what will happen to us and we also trying to figure out exactly how he was able to escape. You guys won't believe what stupid answers we came out with and shared with each other.

After JB, went straight to Penin to alter 2 more of my 70s pants (that's what i call it now) and then met Sad at her work place at Spinnelli and chill there till my parents fetch me. Waited for like 3 - 4 hrs yet to no avail. Then Sad ( fad-perry dress)was so sweet enough to gave 3 free drinks and a discounted chocolete truffle cake, which was damn yummy. Oh, and i applied for a part-time job there and was interviewed the same day and 99.9% getting it. So now i have 2 jobs. I know. What the hell am i thinking right? But you know what, I am not schooling anymore. Rather than sitting around at home during my non-working days, might as well i use that free time, get another job and make money.

And to Yana, it's best to let go caused he's not worth your time. All he did was just to make a bitch fool out of you. If he ever said that he will change, then best yet not to trust him. Trust me. I know some people who told me to take thier words into account that they would change, but nope. No matter how much the emphasise they gave you. So, don't worry you have other good friends to keep you occupy ok.

"them girls are just plain young-bred corns and raise from the hood"

random pictures for to feed random thoughts.

I want to eat popeye.K bye.

2008-02-28T03:55:00.000-08:00

This video was from the Jimmy Kimmel Show

It was Fucking hilarious.

Sarah Silverman 'Fucking' Matt Damon and in response

to the video Jimmy Kimmel 'Fucking' Ben Affleck.

Other celebrities in the video : Brad Pitt (Fed-ex guy, Robin Williams, Good Charlotte, Josh Groban & many more - in the 2nd video)

Enjoy!

2008-02-25T01:36:00.000-08:00

Steady As She Goes - The Raconteurs

Why do I have to be the 'ugly' one in the family? Why am I the 'hairy' one in the family? Why am I the one with the big ass & big nose in the family?

It's sucks when these thoughts came running and play around your mind and you just can't get it out. I still vaguely remember the time when one of my auntie loudly said to my mom : "Kak Ana, si Wan ni kepala dia ngan hidung dia besar eh?" ( basically, she asked my mom why is my head and my nose are big). Thanks ah, that's a huge 'boost' to my morale. It's bad enough that your schoolmate made fun of you, and now your family members??

Anyway, I have been slacking around at home and the fatty acids been safely stored around my waist because all I did these few days was eat,sleep,watch T.V. - that's my primary activities. However, going jogging with Linah tomorrow afternoon then take shower and off to meet faliq to go take our pay, collect my G.V. card and get to know his friend who works at Marc Jacobs (*staff purchase hint*hint*) Guess, more and more people are being added to my staff purchase lists. You will never know when you needed them right.

I felt like shitting again for the 4th time today. I just ate a 2ml tub of Cookies and Cream ice cream and I am contented.haha.What the hell is wrong here? Ayu, u should try ok. Cause seriously, you could break a bone anytime sooner. Had a feast at makansutra (beside DXO) The lala, the oyster omelet. yummy.

Saw Lina and her Bro and mom at Burger King, downtown east. Lina and her mom are so cute. You guys are really funny. Sherlyn and Yana. Never heard from them for 2 weeks now.

Went to Chinatown with Sad and we got our self some cheap thrills like cool shades for like $8 each and bought myself two. Then we explore around Chinatown like some freaking tourists. Then got my jeans altered and the auntie gave discount. Plus it wasn't that bad. Sad were complaining that she was hungry so we went to Al-Jalini for the infamous Chicken Beryani and Roti John Cheese, which i ate like all of it cause Sad said she was full. Afterwards, we went to bugis for sheesha and sat there for like 2 hrs plus. It was funny when the both of us started to ask everyone we knew to join us for sheesha because we don't want to look like a bunch of idiots seating there, shiok sendiri, infront of the other big groups. I mean, the people around us are in groups and me and Sad we just there - the 2 of us like some dumb and dumber. But to no avail, none of our friends were able to come. Ouh, by the way. I sucked at sheesha. yea!

Happy 21st B'day to Iskandar (better known as Ted). May you be blessed with countless of happyness, wealth and health. Sorry can't turn up for your BBQ pit yesterday. Hope ou enjoy yourself buddy!

find a girl and settle down, steady as she goes..

2008-02-14T04:04:00.000-08:00

Bleeding Love -Leona Lewis

urgh! Valentines Day. Guys bringing box of chocolates around. Girls carrying a bouquet of flowers. So cliche. Seriously, If you love that special someone, everyday should be a 'valentine day'. You don't have to wait for Feb 14.

Anyway, this is how i spent that special day. I had a 'physical date' at CMPB at 9.30 hours early in the morning. And the date ended at around 12.45noon. It was preety fast, yet i still don't know why my friends complained that ns medical check-up took so long. Then after that, met Lina and Radeen to watch Jumper (which is sucks btw). Initially, I wanted to meet Diy to watch a movie but her friend has already booked the tickets and I did told her last min. Anyway Diy, i have booked you for p.s. I love you.

So after watching the movie, went to Chocz to get a slice of cake for Sherlyn and went back to school. We took 518, thinking that it will not make us late to reach school but that stupid driver stop out of no where and told us, passengers that he needed to go to the toilet. And that cost us being late for school. Flop-piee-doo-dee!

Caught Lions for Lambs movie. Very Intellectually one, it is. The movie talk about how the government have misconstrue in leading the millitary to Iraq. How student with academic potential were mislead and somehow caught in this system. Eventually they voluntered to serve the nation and war thining that it may help change the nation for the better. Flaws of democracy are not obvious as you got to look deeeply in the movie to see one. And this person who sits in the 'presedential' chair and to his greedness, order his soldiers to fight for his own greed. Great movie. should watch.

School is officially over for me. Oh god, how much i love it! Just can't wait to get my Diploma. And begin a new chapter in my life. Flop-piee-doo-dee!

Lately, I am going through some rough times with a couple of people around me. But you know, they said these happens to bring you closer to them. But it seems like to me, it's not happening yet. So for now, I am not sure if I should be happy with it or not. (Sad, your not alone :))

Anyway, all worries aside. Right now, in this point of my life, I am just going to grab any oppurtunity that comes along. Work hard in my desgining and editing. But first, I've got to begin at the bottom. So this where I stand for now.

Btw, happy 21st advanced birthday Sherlyn :) Wish you all health, wealth and happyness in the world

2008-02-03T07:09:00.000-08:00

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

2 more weeks of schooling and only 3 days of lesson left. No exams. Just 2 more presentation and 1 more report. Then hooray!

This loooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggg holiday, is going to be the time that i am really going to enjoy myself to the core. Gonna Work, hang out with friends & family, photo hunt, shop,eat, work on my portfolio and don't have to worry about anything that are related to the term called- Academic.

This previous 2 days i was working with a HUGE smile at CKU at Marina Square. Because they put me with another part-timer, who was FUCKING gorgeous nak mampos ( in english: to the max). She has this mix blood of arab and malay, i think. and she is damn damn preety. Equally preety or (maybe slightly Preetier) than Beyonce i guess. Damn! It was me and her all alone working together for that 2 days. And she's a big eater but thin and we clicked preety well. I made her laughed loud and she has the most beautiful eyes and lips and teeth and smile and skin. BUT sadly, she's someone elses girlfriend. It's ok. I am settled in being her collegue/friend. Nothing more, cause you know, i don't go after people 's girlfriend. That's off limit. But i would love to work at the same outlet with her again. kk. Enough.

Anyway, celebrated my deary grandmom's birthday yesterday at Kampong Chai Chee Restruant. I adore n alove her soo much. She's the preetiest grandma i have ever seen :) happy birthday and i wish you health and happyness. Then after the celebration the whole family went to East Coast Park for some family quality time. It was really lovely and really do treasure these time cause it has been ages since i had been in one. We went back around 1.00am.

The interview at CNA came out last 2 days. Get me bodied.

2008-01-21T23:51:00.000-08:00

You Got - Melee

spent most of the time in school till 9pm with Diy and Zam yesterday. Each doing individual project. Damn! my supply chain is like hell. I really don't know how to go about doing it and the submittion is due this Friday.Great!

My post-graduation holiday to Bali is most probably cancel cause I've got not enough money. My dad did not want to pay for the air and accomodation fees (though i said i would like to borrow and pay him monthly). I was really looking forward to it. My last holiday before i go serve the nation (whatever!). I can't pick up extra shift at work and that make it more sucks.

Anyway, can't wait till Feb 15th. Last day of school.

My stomach is still 'suffering' from 'pak long syndrome' ( bulging stomach). Want to know why?

Last Friday ate at Celebrate Sad's B'day at fish n Co with Ayu,Lina, Sherlyn,Yana, Shu Jie, Zhi Hui. Then on Sat had quite a meal at Lina's house with Ayu, Sad and Sherlyn and later that night ate at Diy's Chalet with Zam,Dir, Ted and Lu Ayy. Then Sunday, had a 2hour sitting at Seoul Garden with Faliq. His treat. These 3 days of 'Food Festival', only one time 1 shit! Thats why, I am now 66kg. But physically i look like a 62.haha.ok.

Ok now. Cloverfield sucks. Can't live up to its hype.bETTER watch it online.

2008-01-13T04:17:00.000-08:00

Southern Stuff - Anthony Hamilton

stuck at home the whole day doing CRM. This automation is killing our group. None of us were sure how to go about doing it and tomorrow is the evaluation day.mampos.

2 more months of schooling then 'ORD'..haha.Nope, that's for Ted. The correct word is graduation ya'll.hahaha. But till then, numerous projects and assignments due dates to be met. whoopie!!

Ted, cepat grow rambut. nak dekat ORD kan..haha

I need a proper planner where it's compact but has enough room for me to write down my daily activities. Ouh. This friday and Saturday is the 9th and 10th muharam and according to dir, it's the auspicious day/s to fast as your one year of sins is forgiven. He told me he read it at the malay newspaper.so yeah, why not right.

Mon : CRM EVALUATION

Tue: CCOM RESUME & Cover Letter, Study CRM QUIZ

Wed: Start Supply Chain Individual project

Thur: CRM Quiz 2, Supply Chain Tutorial 3 & working

Fri: Engineering Career Seminar & Sad b'day dinner with the 'wives' at Seoul Garden & sheesha

Sat: Diy Chalet with 'hooha' gang

Sun: Working

BALI,BALI,BALI,BALI,BALI

March 08, can't wait (if save enough lah)

hungry? me too

2008-01-12T22:47:00.000-08:00

Let it out - Over With this

It's funny how people react to the things they read. I am not saying it's good or bad. Just saying it's funny. All those true anguish and frustration starts to pour in.

It's true friendship is not just about being there for each other, it's about understanding each other. But ask yourself this, trusting your so-called gf, whom you despise alot when you broke up, more than your friend, whom you have friendship with for years, you called that understanding?! And you when i asked something about you, you will said only you and the other friend of ours would need to know. What does that said about you.Infact you are doubting the friendship and that completely shows where you stand or infact, where do i stand?

Then right now, I got the feeling that you are trying to get back with that person. At the time you broke up, you said she's going to be 'loose' but you look at you now. Who's worst? There's a malay saying : sudah luda, jilat balik (translate: after you spit it out, you lick it back). Damn you are desperate. But hey, you know what, this is your love life. Don't want to bother.

What got me laughing also is that you said we need to be matured about it and you said faking it is not. And that we need to be open and confront each other. Then, look back at what you said, you said you are acting diffrently because thats how you felt and you want to see how open that person can be. Ok. If you are so 'WISE' and 'OPEN' enough, then why is there a need to act differently? Why don't you just be open and confront. There isn't a need to 'see how open' that person is. You got to fucking stop with all this 'mini-test' of yours. Want to do this to see how this person react la? want to do that to see what the person say la? It is nonsense. Plus, I am faking it because i cared about our friendship and i don't want to jeopardise it. Is that wrong? Even if i confront you, you think you would be able to take with all your ego?

I have, or infact, we have confront with you about ur attitude and we tried to correct you. And you said you will change. You did. But not for long.

Then you go about saying how i did not show that i do not forget my friends. Ok. If you interpret that me not chilling with you guys as often as i did previously, as showing that i forget my friends, then fine I admit. But come on man, if that's true that is a stupid STUPID reason to base on. If you are so good at telling people to ask themselves why, Did you ever asked yourself why I hang out left often?. Did you. Like you said, look at a different angle. Plus, yes, i am tired because i got work and school and sometime i am too lazy to meet you guys because i am just too damn tired and if not, i need to do complete my school projects that dues very early. I am sure some of our friends would know and understand.

If i am not wrong, i am the only one in the group that are juggling both work and school and you need to start being a good friend, and the least you could do is to be understanding. Of course it's easy for you to say that your tired and that your busy with something and you can still often meet. But asked yourself, where do we often meet? And when we meet, what do we talk about? you will go about bragging what you did or how many girls are aftering you or that you and your other clan did this and that and that it's very cool and funny. you see. everything is about YOU YOU YOU. It's not that I do not want to hear, it's just that talking about the same old thing over and over again, it kinda bores you. And i bet, some of our friends would agree to this.

And since when did i ever ask for someone to care about my feelings? Who is the one that brag about themselve? who's the one being self-centered?yeah, people change. But somehow, you are not those people.

Frankly speaking, I am grateful to have you and the rest of the guys as my very close friends. But obviously, at some point of time some of the actions i made may contradict otherwise. But that doesn't mean that i am not grateful. If you said you are, did you ever think back on what you did, would it impose the same feelings.thoughts to him. And if you know your friends do not like it when you do stupid things to them, then why the hell did you do it?

I have always been compromising but you tend to see it that I am not. And stop all the bullshitting of one day your friends are gone. It's just too immatured to use this scenario to push everything in your favour.

Sorry is a strong word. But then again, with your ego, you did not believe in them. And sometimes, saying and showing it together, goes along way than just showing it without having to say. Of course you can say your happy that people are negative towards you because you've got no sentiments. And did i see a 'sorry' at the last part?..haha. That's weird. Thought you didn't believe in saying them.

But you know what. I have been thinking and reflecting back over these past few days (see, not only you reflect, others did too). How life is too short for all these. Seriously. If you think this is about you by all means feel guilty. And i guess i have said enough and i just want to end this and move on. I am just going to go with the flow and see what god has plan out for me. I don't care if you even want to get back at me. From now on, I don't want to take anything to seriously and i admit, at times i can be really uptight on things because i thought after all these years of friendship i thought you knew me well. But i guess not. Anyway, I seriously hope for the best of our friendship. Yahoo!!

2008-01-10T07:25:00.000-08:00

Built To Last - Melee

Just got back from my dinner with my family. Celebrating my mom's 44th B'day at Bilal Restaurant. I was too busy munching all those dishes to even care about the 5 SMSes in my handphone. Anyway, the food there was preety ok. But personally abit too costly (though i'am not the one paying). It's better at Simpang or Jalan Kayu or Restu Seafood Restraunt, taste wise. But their butter prawn is the best one i tasted so far.

Took my Napfa yesterday and i failed...or so they say. Thank god it didn't rain heavily yesterday and that they did not cancel the stations. For all of the stations, i got mostly Es, so based on the criteria i should pass. But you know what, i don't give a damn. My body is aching like hell. But all i need now is just someone to give me full body massage.

I am done with work and all i want to do now is to concentrate on my projectsss.(emphasize the Ses). Since working, felt like i have not been contributing enough for the group. Now is the time. But i can't wait till the date of Feb 15- my last day of school. No exams.

personal reminder : inform christina ng and joan d'cotta on changing interview date due to med check-up.

I realised that when you gain something, for sure, in return you will lose something. You can never have both. One day u meet new friend (gained) and the next thing you know, your current friend whom you care about 'turn around and spit you in the face' (lose). After all these times i swallow all the fucking criticism and mood swings and being there for you, this is how you repay me. DAMN!. All i want in return is to atleast be appreciative and i never asked anything more than that.

In other words, they were not there for you when you need them the most and they would just simply say something (without thinking) and fucking pull your morale down and just simply fucking ruin your day. But right now, all i can try is to just think about all the good stuff they have done for me and all the great times i have spent with them. I am willing to put all these to end for good and I am still trying. I am good at faking my feelings. most of my friends knew that. So if i am still faking it, that means i care about our friendship cause sometimes these little things are unnecessary and surfacing it out may simply jeopardise the friendship that we all have built to last.

The Melee

a great band with great sounds

2007-12-31T03:22:00.000-08:00

The 365th day of 2007

It was a one hell of a ride for me. From boredom of attachments to stressful major project to laughter with friends and family and to meeting interesting individuals.

Fresh new start for the year of 2008

Looking forward for graduation to turning 21 to spending more time with my loved ones to start saving money and to be more bold in living my life.

Happy New Year to all N all.

2007-12-24T21:57:00.000-08:00

Get Me Bodied - Beyonce

thanks a million - truly enjoy my celebration!

i had a blast time during my b'day- 21st Dec. Best one it has been, by far.

i started my celebration on the late night of the 20th Dec. After visitng my grandmoms during hari raya haji, went to faliq house at around 10pm cause his maid cooked nasi minyak and he told me to come over. On the way that, bumped into fahmy.That day itself, i ate meals that can last me for 3 days ( ayu knew what i ate). Anyway, was there till around 12.30 am and went back home. B'day smses started to pour in.

On The day, 21st Dec. Woke up around 9.30am and went to school. I was there for like an hour before i left to meet Dir for Friday prayers.

All jokes aside. I was sincerely honoured that my b'day fell on a friday (penghulu of all days). During the prayers, I prayed to god for my happyness,health, wealth and never to forget my family and friends and god and thank HIM for all HE has given to me. It was fortunate for me that the imam cited the takbir that got me weeping inside. Dir was already crying (not out loud la, but tears was in his eyes). I understand. All in all, i guess i just got lucky that all these happened on my b'day. Probably, if i were really really really religious, i would have said that it was a gift from HIM :)

Anyway after prayers, went back home. I need my sleep and so i did. woke up around 6pm and went out around 7.30 pm to have b'day dinner with my family. Steamboat at Marina. It was my elder brother's treat. It was nice that us family had dinner together after so long.

After the dinner, met my 'brothers' and 'sisters' for a late dinner ( prolly supper!) at simpang. I was late.But hey, my b'day what?!.hahhahaa :) Anyway, it was unintentional. We laughed non-stop and just makes jokes after jokes after jokes. From speaking buah loudly infront of a makcik (Dir) to flirting with the old waitress (Fir)..haha :) Saw Addafiq and Kadir that day. Nice people. We went off around 12 midnight and walk all the way back. Alot of stuff and i really meant literally, alot of stuff happened. We just laugh and makes fun of everyone of us. TRULY, what i wanted. You guys are among the people who really meant the world to me. Then they surprised me with presents. Really really sweet of them :)

Then yesterday bumped into hyqel and sajid at orchard while i was on my way back to work place. and after work , faliq and his cousin brought me to arab street for some sheesha to celebrate my belated b'day. yup. sheesha. Then had dinner at Mr.Prata.

So that's pretty much how i celebrated my b'day. Though it may not sound as interesting, but who cares, cause i truly truly enjoy myself. Thanks again to who it made all these possible.

i would like to thank all these people for the wishes :) (in order)

My twin's brother gf, Bum Arrifin, Fahmy Putra, Maliza Tay, Hareez wak, Ayu,Faliq,Diy,Dir,Lina,Amal,Sad,Mom(on radio),Elaine,Genesia,Raihanah,Surianti,Fir,Zam, Ted, Lu ayy, Tipah, Yana,Sheikh Enzo, Sakinah, Jerlin, Suriati, Jaslyn, Facebook,Photobucket

---------End of B'day--------

Now what is left is my school projects. And i need to now fully commited on these couple of months before i graduate. New Year is coming. Time for some serious shit resolution. Im 20 for god-sake.

I know I owe some people, over-due photos. Bet you guys are like irritated with me with the photos :) Sorry :) I'll email to you guys or pass online at msn ok.

living my life to the fullest; bit by bit

2007-12-01T21:57:00.000-08:00

Don't Know What To Tell You - Aaliyah

Presentation is over = Major Project is OVER

Now i can concentrate on other parts and pieces. Those sub projects and assignments.

Right now, in my life, I'm trying to balance things out. Be it with school, family, friends and even work. Sometimes in life, you can't satisfy everyone and you will definitely feel left out once in a while. But don't worry cause that's pretty much how life partly works and you will get over it. It's all about growing up and being matured. So, I've decided to just go with the ' flow' and just enjoy to the fullest to what life is giving you. So if you feel that you want to do this, then just go ahead because if you don't, in future, you will definitely look back and think why didn't you do it and then you probably might regret it. But remember, there's always a retribution to what you did. In other sense, Karma that is.

With all the hardwork put in since last Semester, I've begun my personal redemption.

1st Redemption:

Had a blast time with the forever besties of mine; Zam,Dir,Diy,Fir,Lu Ayy,Tipah last Friday. Man & Ted weren't there. Anyways, we had a hell of a good time laughing to each other jokes and frankly, i can't wait for this coming Sat, our 'Zouk-out' event :) jaga kau Dir.haha.

2nd Redemtion:

Went spree yesterday. Supposed to meet earlier but faliq wanted to study in the morning so, we meet up pretty late and there were quite a number of places we wanted to go, so that's why i SMS-ed Dir that I can't accompany him jogging. Went from Haji Lane (like finally) to Arab Street to City Hall to Orchard to bugis then back to Orchard. We went from shop to shop and got myself some tops. Oh, you guys should watch HITMAN!..damn fucking good movie sia! Really. Serious!

3rd Redemption:

spending one whole day with family today because ___. Plus, i need to do 5 photo collages and some school work. So pretty much I am rushing here and there. Sad, sorry i can't make it to your bro and sis-in-law's tunang and congrats to both them and YOU! How is it like having a sis-in-law and be called 'makcik' soon? haha. Anyway, leaving in 20 mins time.

Dyed my hair blue-black (according to the label indication) but as it turns out, it made my hair much blacker as it was before.Hrmph! So now, I'm thinking of getting one more.

Was interviewed by Channel News Asia about the topic on Clubbing for young teenagers, it caught me off guard and i gave way dumb answer, and i don't even know what the hell I'm saying. Please don't air it on TV. Fuck

And this month I'am not working. more fuck.

More redemption to come :

Dir's B'day Outing

My B'day

Photo 'Hunting'

Going out with Sad & Yana

~Grabbing everything on what life has to offer~

~This is just the beginning of the redemption~

need a leg?

2007-11-27T08:21:00.000-08:00

Sonnet - The Verves

Hard to earn.Easy to Spent.

Why can't it be the other way around...It's money I'm talking about. Gave my parents their $180 and I'm left with minimal amount to spent on my shopping remedy.
Anyway, today i hated donuts for the first time in my life.

The day starts with me in school doing Major Project report and as usual I'm late (style karat..haha). Ayu as usual with her spree stuff, Sherlyn will be doing the project editings and linah will be looking at both what Ayu and Sherlyn would be doing. But one thing that will definitely caught our group attention and that is FOOD. We've been searching on the net on how to find Sin Ming Tower that sells really really nice food. Then, Ben & Jerry's. We were talking about the new flavours. So, there you go. To win our hearts, just give our group a nice yummy splendid delicious food. Easy as that.

After finishing the report, went to work and reached an hour earlier. So, went to HMV to look for a DVD but can't find any that interest me. Then, on the way to the workplace, saw Ben & Jerry's promotion at 7-11. So what else? I bought 2 small tub ; Chocolate Brownie & Cookie Dough. Then made a pit-stop at Munch Donut and bought a box of 6.

Work today was damn slack so, i ate 4 of the donuts and the ice-creams. That's when i started to feel like puking. To be honest, it's the donuts. Sick of it...for now!

Met Sad (sorry for rushing you) at Marina Square to accompany me go buy a Jansport backpack (at last!). A nice backpack where I can just dump everything in there. Then, went for supper at Gelare and had a nice chat with Sad there and chill at Raffles City Shopping. Saw Mr.Fahmy Putra and exchanged a couple or two conversations and he offered me a job (like he said he will) this friday as a dresser at Lee Hwa Fashion Show. But the thing is, it's from 9am to prolly 10pm and that i will be having a Major Project Judging at 3pm in school.

Fuck. "Mr. Putra please pressure your friend in-charge to let me off for 3 hours"

This thursday i'll get to 'feast' myself on the CK bag that i have been aiming all this time and what made it more sweet is that, i am able to get a 50% off.haha.All thanks to Sad :)

Dye deep purple or Ash Gray for my hair? Still can't decide.

Irritated by _______

dates to remember (cause i never will):

28/11 - MP REPORT SUBMITTION
29/11 - CRM QUIZ 2
30/11 - EVENT & MP JUDGING & JOGGING
1/12 - SPREE
8/12 - DIR'S B'DAY AT SENTOSA
11/12 -TERM TEST
12/12 - TERM TESt

UNO session

2007-11-15T08:57:00.000-08:00

Attitude - Suede

Past is catching up.

Been busy with Projects this couple of weeks. Projects!- Fucking hate this word. School been rushing us to meet the deadly numerous deadlines. I just got no time to even watch some TV programme. Pimples breakout, watch out!

By the way, just completed my first t-shirt design thanks to Sad for teaching me the photoshop function.haha. I guess credits goes to you eh!

Had group study with Dir,Zam and Diy on Mon. It has been ages since we last sat together and study. Most of the time spent there, we did was all laughing and laughing. This goes on when we met Fir at our usual hangout. Ahhh!!!...like i told Diy : "Gerek lepak ngan dorg after sooo long"...then bumped into Hafiz Hamzah who's working at safra now. still the same.

Tuesday.Work.Needless to say more.

We did Viva (las CCOM!!..haha) slides. Ayu and Lina mostly just talked about this girl cute.that girl preety.this girl so skinny..don't worry you guys are cute, skinny and preety in your own way. Every one's beautiful; your beautiful, your beautiful -james blunt!..haha..

Thursday. a boringly long day.Viva las CCOM presentation. D'cotta non stop, kept asking about the results timing. In the end we did pretty good for the presentation except for that ayu mas dayu tamesh who scored very good for her individuals. Luckly you didn't go all selenge like you did during tcs 2 presentation.hahahaha....then, we skipped supp chain lecture as "THIS PERSON's'' tummy was making noise and that she's wayy too hungry.haha..hello Lina. Suroh Ramesh suapkan thosai lah..haha..b'day present kau kita beli jersy t-shirt from pasar malam then put at the back, Lina and Ramesh forever..hahaha..

Went Friday prayers with the crazy bunch. Dir.Zam.Fir. Btw, i learnt a new way to call a pelamin and that is parlament..haha..thanks to Dir. Nanti kau nak kahwin make sure your parlament is stable.haha. Then after prayers, went lunch with them and tipah joined later at LJS. Fir can't stop babbling about the 'cute' underage girl seating nearby and zam can't stop looking at the girl seating beside us.haha..yeah!. can't deny.she's pretty hot!.But too bad, she's looking at me instead..hahaha. Sorry Zam. kidding aje.

The friendship need to be renew as lots of unspoken things are being surfaced out.Time to seat and talk and open up.

Got in contact with old school mate of mine, Fahmy Putra. Still that selamba kid.haha.

Pressured with school deadlines/projects lately so will redeem myself with : Zoo outing. Shopping spree. Botak Jones.

2007-11-04T01:21:00.000-07:00

Alicia Keys is just Awesome.

*love the ending part*

2007-11-01T05:55:00.000-07:00

Amber- 311

moody kills me.

Was starting to feel fucking sick since last Monday and i hate it. Because if I'm sick, i go all freaking moody and get pissed of at people and make fucked-up face (muka taik). Fir called today and sorry Fir, can't chill with you guys today -There goes another roller coaster round of pure guilt. Its been months since i last chilled with them.

Got my work schedule for the month of November. 7 days working ONLY. Unfortunately, i am working for 4 days at Calvin Klein accessories. Effa been saying that the sales there is poor. Henceforth, it's boring. WTH! i don't care cause as long as i have my basic is just fine.

Here's the dates that i am unavailable. Just in case.

6/11/07 - at Millenia Walk

8/11/07 - at Paragorn

13/11/07 - at wisma

18/11/07 - at wisma

20/11/07 - at wisma

25/11/07 - at wisma

27/11/07 - at Millenia Walk

( May be working last min to cover for other collegues)

ok.Panadol. Here i come. Heal me, headache!

2007-10-25T08:42:00.000-07:00

Michael Buble - Home

Holidays are over for me and school has just begun. It was mentally hectic for me for the first week (of school). Though there's no examinable subjects for this semester, the projects to submit, the deadlines to meet..it's juts wow! 4 subjects felt like 8. Way too much stuff to do. It is sad that i would spending this last 3-4 mths together with my 'wifes' as classmates and groupmates - Ayu, Lina & Sherlyn. Been together with them since our first year. On a positive note, i've made strong bonds with them and not forgetting Yana & Sad (new classmate..hahaha). Other friends i have made along the way......really gonna miss them.

Back at School.

I have no schools on Tues and Weds. How great is that!. haha. But there's this numbingly freaky lecturer who fucking irritates people. Me is one of them. Well, other than that all tutors an lecturers are easy to get along. Been bumping to many familiar faces ;The luqman-clone who works at coffee bean, Sean from Country Road. Some more still to come.

Back at work.

Last Tue i was working with Effa and brought back 2 bags of hangers. Yeah, i bet u guys are thinking WTH! haha. No reasons.Anyway working again this Sat & Sun (which i will report sick cause going jalan raya with Rangers). Then working again this coming Tues. Yeah, calculated my pay.haha..But CPF is so CELAKA. potong banyak nak mampos.

Went jalan Raya on Wed with poly friends as all of us was not schooling. Upload pix some other time.This Sunday going out with rangers instead of Sat cause some can't make it. And i am one of them. REALLY LOOKING FORWARD!...time to be whacky!

And, lately i got pissed off at my loveed ones for the small reasons. it's hard when no one knows exactly what you are going through. It's a fucked up life for me!

you know Wak Amin?

2007-10-18T08:58:00.000-07:00

Talk To Me, Dance With Me - Hot Hot Heat

MISSED OUT

1.2.3.4....Hi 5! since the first day of work my schedule turned upside down. Totally. I missed out watching T.V, slacking at home, msn-ing, friendster-ing and so on....And it's all because i was way too exhausted from the work to even turn on my lappy. Lately, i did not reply to my friends' smses cause i was either way too busy or that i forgot about it. Zam, Dir, Lina and whoever did not get my reply till now, sorry :(

I realised that some of the colleagues can't stand Effa cause she talks more then do. For me personally, i think she's a nice person. She even packed food for me for 3 days now. Save cash aku!..haha...But the downfall is that working with her is tiring cause she will always have something for you to do. Mostly transferring stock (without the knowledge of the management) to another outlet. It's abit troublesome! Even told Faliq (her son) that working with his mom makes me lose my breath. But time goes by quick though. Yeah.. So far, only Diy was there to visit me.TWICE. Thanks Diy!

New people that im gonna bump to anytime when school re-opens - Sean (yr2, IBT), Cassie (yr 1, bUSS) and this guy (yr 3.1, Micro) who works at Coffean Bean Wheelock who looks like luqman for shit real.

Been spending sometime with Faliq most of the time after work. the other time during Raya night (malam raya), accompany him from work to geylang bazaar.Fucking pack and saw alot of people that i do not wish to see. till then, there was no more bus to go back so share a cab to Tampines Mart McDonalds and went back home around 3 plus am. Then yesterday, after work accompany him to see something from Porter and happened to 'bump' into Ayu, who was sooooooo reluctant to see me cause of her 'major pimples outrage'.haha..in the end, i did. Nanti your face jadi Anita sarawak...don't worry :)

Just got my timetable....it was..goourdddd!!...no schools on Tues & Weds, that means time for self pleasure..haha...Anyway, dozing off soon....need to lists the days of _____.

This sat got another event work at 7.30am to 3pm. Then got Lina's open house and will be going there at 5.30pm and then watch Resident Evil: Extinction (so last thursday) at around 9.30 pm.Yeaness!...i cramped myself. Still got Jalan Raya with friends to plan.

Couldn't accompany Muhsin and Ris to buka together the other day. Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya, Ris!

Listing all these to remind myself cause i can for sure never be able to remember this again.

People i've been wanting to meet lately :

Zam.Dir.Man.Fir.Fai.Ted.Lu Ayy.Diy.Tipah.Muhsin.Fauzi.Diyana.

Sadrina.Ayu.Yana.Linah.Sherlyn.

5/10 - working
6/10 - working
8/10 - working
9/10 - working
11/10 -working
12/10 -working
14/10 -working
15/10 -working
16/10-working
17/10-working
18/10-working
19/10-working
20/10-working (event), Lina open house & Movie
21/10 -working, Efffa Open house
23/10 -working
26/10 -working
30/10 -working

Alright then.Work Tomorrow.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MUSLIMS :)

2007-10-06T11:08:00.000-07:00

Eleanor -Jet

Work was tiring but enjoying it. Friday was my first day and worked for 13 hours!! - now i know how Sad felt. The shop was new, so have to start from scratch. And today (thanks to someone,Yana) I have to work from 10am to 7pm. It should be your shift. :P

Yana, if you don't want, tell Effa. She kept saying "Si Yana cekik darah lah" to me everytime she could not reach you...haha. Anyway, on my first day of work, i clicked with Faliq & Julie (Devil).Really enjoy their company. Fun bunch of people. Everytime i look at Effa, i stress ...yana, i think you know why..haha..so far, my fasting was not affected although at times, im sooooo tempted to drink.really.cause it's damn damn damn tiring.especially first day.

AND YANA, MOST OF THE STAFF SAID THAT I LOOKED LIKE YOU! LOOK LIKE YOU! I TOLD YOU THAT WE LOOK LIKE SIBLINGS!

There's a store wide discount of up to 70% on Ladies and Men's Apparels at Country Road, Paragon, level 3. While Stock Last.

Adios.

and people who ate them all...

2007-10-03T06:04:00.000-07:00

Unbelievable -Craig David

Finally I’ve got a job. Though it’s only like for 3 months but at least im making some money. They wanted me to do something about my hair (tie). Something about dress code. Nah, I don't mind. Reporting this Friday at Paragon.Country Road, here I come!! Thanks Yana (and God!)

Going out tomorrow to break fast with Yana and Sad. Prolly going to City Hall area. Sick of going Geylang. The crowd and everything - just too much to handle.

Ayu've been smsing Lina asking her about her B'day present. Our group is known to be giving our friends b'day present 1 to 2 mthns after their b'day.That's Us!

Last few days, i received 2 NLB fines one was $3.45 and the other was 15cent. These fined was recorded on 2003. Yup, 4yrs back. I don't even know that i was fined till last few days.

Then last week, got a letter from the CMPB, requiring me to register online and book medical check up.haha. My 'time' is reaching soon. And just realised that I can barely do 10 push-ups and pathetically 20 sit-ups. Mati Mati! Tentu Mati!..Police.Police.Police.Police.Police.Police....

The other day when to Geylang with members - Fir.Zam & Dir. (Pics) whacky close, good friends i love.

I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY ARE SUPER COOL & GORGEOUS WHEN ACTUALLY THEY ARE JUST FUCKING UGLY.

I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE GOOD-LOOKING BUT ARE FUCKING ARROGANT.

THESE PEOPLE NEED TO BRING THEIR FEET BACK TO GROUND.

FUCKING PEOPLE.

Note *
- meet Fai to collect stuff
- ns registration online

2007-09-24T00:54:00.000-07:00

Fallen Leaves - Billy Talent

OK. I listened to Hairspray's song - You Can't Stop The Beat, practically everyday. Well, what made it more worst is that I even saved the song lyric in my lappy so i could sing along when ever i want to. This is what i normally do when I am free. I looked up to every lyric of every song in my Mp3, saved and memorised the lyrics. I really do. ok. So there you go.

cool!

2007-09-21T10:27:00.000-07:00

Love Story - Katharine McPhee

went out to buka with Yana and Ayu at sempang and then head down to Bazaar Geylang.

too much happening can't pour details out. Later.

look what we found on a bus stop seat - a used condom.nasty

'Joss Stone' & 'Nicole Richie '

The Labucis

2007-09-20T07:02:00.000-07:00

Radiohead & Portishead - Blow Out

Laziest brothers, I have

Can't stand my brothers at times. They are some of the laziest people i know. They would do anything they want to and then make a mess our of it. And when my mom told them to clean up they would say, "later". That, in their own definition means, "No I won't. Later someone will do it for me". And that someone will mean either me or my mom. ( ingat maid ke ape?!). I swear, i really can't stand them sometimes. If it's not PS2, it's their dirty clothes all over the bedroom floor or it's the food wrapper. Some household chores, they can't even volunteer to do. Like just now, the toilet was in a mess and I can't even think myself to be bathing inside. Then, I had no choice but to clean the toilet cause i can't stand looking. I mean, what's the point of bathing when the toilet you used is dirty. It's like bathing with dirts - you won't be clean even how much you scrub yourself.

Sometimes they can't use thier own initiative (common sense) to do all this simple little stuff. I always told my mom that i can't wait for them to get married and get the hell out of the house. Spare me and my mom the trouble to clean up for them. I will pity the girls who end up with them. For sure there will be alot of cleaning for them to do. I think the only group of women that my brothers are suitable to marry off are Maids cause they are trained to clean up. Or I think, I would move out of the house first.

But, I love my brothers. I mean, who doesn't love their family right?!. As much as they drives me crazy at times, I love how they completes the family.The fun and laughter. All grudges just disolve. I enjoy Laughing with them. I just want them to be more apprieciative of my parents and please clean up your own mess.

So, it's a bittersweet love I have for my brothers.

Today, just finished baking Chocolate Chip muffin. It's not nice nor it's bad. After a week of fasting, baked 3 kinds of cakes - Nutella cupcakes, Chocolate Cornflakes Macaroon and Chocolate Chip muffin. So yeah, I've got a thing for chocolates. Anyway, atleast im doing something. Freaking bored at home.

Chocolate Chip mini muffin w/ choclate frosting

burnt Chocolate Cornflakes Macaroon ( all thanks to Ayu!)..haha ;)

sucessful ones

Pictures at Changi Outing

2007-09-16T03:16:00.000-07:00

I love F.R.I.E.N.D.S.!

2007-09-16T01:25:00.000-07:00

What you want to do in 10 years time?

Something that just pay the dues or something that really excites and get-you-going every time you do the job?

Both. That’s my answer. Having a career that you love and at the same time helps pay the dues is what every civil minded Homo sapiens would want.

An old school friend of mine, Ariffin (a.k.a. Bum Arffin) appeared in the local malay newspaper today. How much he has changed, from being a school dropout to one of the local’s most well-known photographer. Some of his shot will be published in The Rolling Stone magazine. See, what I mean. So young yet have achieved so much. Rezeki dia. Alhamdulilah.

It’s been 4 days of fasting but it felt like 4 hrs. It’s damn fast. Next thing you know, is Hari Raya.

2007-09-14T02:59:00.000-07:00

changi outing was short but fun. i didn't swim but in the end i got wet.

i didn't know that you need a licence to set up a tent at the beach there.But it's free though. so,yeah.

Zam.Dir.Man.Fir.Lu Ayy.Tipah.Ted.Diy - 7 years of fair share of ups and downs and wonderful memories.

Met Diy new's bf. U asked me about my opinion and i already SMSed to you.haha. I'm happy for you, seriously. *smiles*

well, the cupcake (not much of a cupcake but more to kuih. don't know lah!) 'quest' was a success.haha. i didn't over baked it.all goes smoothly. i decided not to coat it with nutella. so I just filled it in. Brought some to the outing and they kinda liked it.haha *smiles*

I already got an order for the cupcakes. Yea!

before baking

i know what you guys thinking - it looks like sh*#! but thank god it does not at all!!!

2007-09-13T09:05:00.000-07:00

I'll Be There For You -The Rembrants

be willing to put it in.but not out

be willing to want it all.but not giving it back in return

be willing, is all we need.

"twinkle twinkle little star,

how i wonder what you are.

Up, above the world so high

Like a diamond in the sky"

"twinkle twinkle little star, how i wonder what you are."

2007-09-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

You Can't Stop The Beat - Hairspray

can't wait for tomorrow.the beach.the sand. the company of friends. the excitement boils way before.haha. fasting month is in less than 2 days. can't wait. (*to lose weight and then gain back more than what i lose at the end of the first day of Raya*)

went to accompany parents to sheng siong to buy groceries and ingredients for baking. yup. the person here is baking cupcake with nutella filling and nutella coated. baking tomorrow morning before i go out for the day of beaching. i happened to bump into ZIE at the supermarket. both were smiling the minute we saw each other. *muka mak aku bukan mcm cina. haha. klau gitu, sal anak dia yg 'hensem' ni muka macam thailand?!!..haha. aku rasa muka mcm latin adelah!..haha.perasaan*

then went to bedok simpang for dinner. had chicken tom yam and 2 OREO COOKIES MILKSHAKE. the milkshake was delicious. the best. it blends milk, ice and OREO cookies together. finish off with heavy cream topping and generous serving of chocolate fudge and an OREO COOKIE at the side. *licking*

today watched HAIRSPRAY 3 times. more to come. wanna dance to the songs. so remarkably directed and choreograph. at times, was hallucinating myself being as one of the main cast. i wanna be like the crazy, outwitly done old guy, who's looking for a time machine to go back in time where Jimmy Hendrix play fire with his guitar, in the movie,PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS.

yea!.puasa.raya.salvation spree.buka with friends. baju raya. beach - events to come and birth another wonderful memories in the year of 2007.

2007-09-09T06:54:00.000-07:00

Creole -Beyonce

went to JB yet again today. after customs, went to Aliff restaurant for breakfast. had chicken murtabak and plain prata. one word :YUCK!. So is the gravy. then after that went to JUSCO and got a baju kurong. nice nice. hypnotised my parents to go FISH MAHATTAN RESTAURANT for lunch. two word: LOVE IT!

note:

- Tuesday changi outing with members.

2007-09-08T07:55:00.000-07:00

Blame On Me - Akon

played monopoly with the 'slim river' friends.haha. And as usual I lose for god knows how many times. Lina always win by making lots and lots of houses and hotels and as for Ayu, she's just stubborn.haha. She always wants to win. That's what she said. Then Lina's mom was so lovely enough to cook something for us to eat.awww.haha. Yah. I love the fish nugget.hehe.*hint*hint*

went to west coast to eat and then to expo and bump to Diy.

mind the blue-ness of the pic.something wrong with ayu's hp cam.

2007-09-07T04:31:00.000-07:00

Hey Jude - The Beatles

This is random entry. It's just that there seems to be a trend that girls/women want to be as stick thin as Nicole Richie or Mischa Barton.SICK.

Losing a kilo or 3 is fine. As long as you don't go losing weight till the verge of looking like a walking skeleton and that you look so fragile, that a slight push might break you into pieces.

Some women who i think really execute sexy, poise and are confident and comfortable with their body type. REAL women.

So you girls decide.

2007-09-05T04:27:00.000-07:00

Love Today -Mika

too tired.hot weather.3kg.

ejekan lina yg buruk.haha.

caught in the act.tau pon shocking.jgn buat lagi.haha

ideal footwear for cycling.

the right drink for the all activities.The Healthier Choice.

monkey name 'Green' and monkey name 'white'. the trainer(in red) trying to tame them.haha!!

2007-09-04T08:15:00.000-07:00

Beyonce Giselle Knowles

Happy 26th Birthday.

Superstar.Singer.Actress.Song Writer.

click on the image for better view

2007-09-02T22:18:00.000-07:00

Oh SALMON, what a day!

imagine yourself covered in the blissful smell of raw salmon! It's just awful. Last Friday- what a day!

The day kicks off perfectly as what i wanted it to be - not too hot nor too cold, just cool cloudy weather. Went to Friday prayers with muhsin (coincidentally). meet my dad and saw ayu's brother. On the way back, saw Dee laiman - driving. she stopped directly at my side as me and muhsin was crossing the road. Damn she look great driving the car! But i will look better driving than her.haha.

then later that day, went to accompany Sad to buy b'day cake and present for her beloved, lovey dovey bf, Fad. met her at Raffles place and i told her i want to get these moist chocolate brownie with the nutella filling..hmmm. so we walk like 5 mins and it happens that they don't sell it anymore.hell yeah, they don't (what a day - no.1). then we went to Royal Cakes to place an order for a B'day truffle cake. But this aunty was instantly rude to Sad the moment Sad enquire something. So we just went away.(what a day - no.2). then went to Banquet nearby and ate this homemade TomYam - thick gravy but generous serving. (what a day - no.3). then we walk to Peninsula, from Raffles Place. throughout my armpit starts to sweat, a little. well, i could use the exercise and the wind sure do helps alot (what a day - no.4).haha. talked about what to get for her bf cause she still have no idea exactly what to get.

as we reached Peninsula, we went to this watch shop. then sat infront of 7-11, still thinking what to buy. then saw Fauzi.

In the end we went to Londales * i don't how to spell right* to buy just a wallet. All of the sudden, this sales dude said: " If you want i can give you my 30% discount"

that's true. Sad and me exchanged look with each other. And i told her to get her bf presents here since the guy offered to let us use his discount and Fad loves Londales stuff.haha. Sad was abit worried that the guy wanted something in return. But no. we spent like an hour in the shop and in the end she bought a t-shirt, a wallet and this cool vintage looking belt. all at Londales. the guy, even gave us some goodies (what a day - no.5).haha. so morale of the story is that it's good to go to a shop and bring a preety girl along with you for discounts.haha.then we went to order the cake and then had a pitstop at coffee bean.

we ordered - 2 bottles of Snapple drink, 2 salmon quiche, 1 Mud pie and 1 plate of salmon creamy pasta * i don't know the name of the dish, but i do know it had salmon and it was sooo creamy* and we were totally full (what a day - no.6).

after and hour plus in there, we had some photo shoot session.haha.(what a day - no. 7)

then we went back and all of the sudden Sad had an upset stomach and she said because of the salmon dish.haha.excuses.haha then i waited like 10 mins for her to finish her business then part our ways. In the station as i was waiting for the train, a couple of chinese teenage girls had a fight with this 30-plus-looking chinese dude. the were yelling about suing each other for molest/rape.haha. i was actually giggling to myself as i watched them.( what a day - no.8)

then in the train, i realised that i smell totally like salmon. it's not that obvious but at times u can actually smell it. i tried so hard to cover the smell. in the end, i realised it came from my hands - the smell. yeah. (what a day - no.9).haiz. bee raining this past few days.good to sleep.fuck work!

2007-08-30T08:11:00.000-07:00

i was reading 'my best friend's girl' when my mom said : "do you want to eat Munchy Donuts?"

hell yeah, i do. so i get ready as quickly as i can and then went out of my house and go to Eastwood ColdStorage to get 2 boxes of 12 of Munchy Donuts. however, as it turns out the 2 flavours that i wanted the most was still not ready yet. the server told me that i had to wait for 30 mins. So, i did. i got so tired and freaking bored waiting for just only, 10 mins. so i decided to have something. so i went to The Ice Cream Gallery. the menu there is superb. it's a small shop. but their waffles and homemade ice-cream got a the TNP recognition. but i was in no mood for waffles in the late morning (11.30am) so i had this root beer float with the Belgian Chocolate.YUMMY!

sat in the shop for like 40 mins. then i went back and got the donuts. and went back straight home. ate 7 donuts in total. thats like, what, 2 kg add on to my fucking ass.haha.but u know, thats what i had for the whole day. mayb i was not in the mood for rice or that i had a heavy late breakfast. i don't know.

had some miscommunication with some of my good friends today.but all is settle and over.so no point talking about it. i love u guys :)

holidays are here.no job=no extra pocket money! whatcha gonna do?

Nizam.Haidir.Diyana.Firdaus.Ted.Fairuz.Rahman - i really miss them. (bila nk ada outing lagi?)

root beer float w/ belgium ice cream

2007-08-29T06:54:00.000-07:00

Through with It

I always try to make the effort to 'swallow' everything, every shit, that people i loved gave me but somehow it got stuck in between and make me want to puke but yet again, i hold on to it and 'swallow' again because deep down i really care for them.

at times, i am hating,blaming, doubting and feeling stupid and useless of myself. knowing that i'll never be good enough for anyone. i don't know how long i could take to put up with these. I don't want to be smiling away pretending that it's fine when it is totally not. But somehow, i gave in. I smiled.

till now, the only thing that i know that gets me through is that deep down, i know that i will. So it's all on me now.

2007-08-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

Poetically Pathethic - Amber Pacific

went to Salvation Army Spree with Yana. 3 outlets. Yup, 3- 2 at Changi and 1 at Serangoon. you can actually find some really nice stuff there.it's second hand. you've got to search THOROUGHLY. I got myself a camera bag (which i don't actually really need it) and a 'Nescafe' bag. A total of $6. told you it's preety cheap. Yana got herself a bodyshop mists (which is still haven't been used and it is not expired, i think) and a topshop top. yeah, u read it right, topshop. total costs of $7..haha..sometimes i don't understand why would people would want to throw away these 'nice' stuffs..on the other hand it benefits people like me.hahas.we get a good price for that. other than that, don't expect to find nice2 clothes.tough luck.trust me...anyway, we will be going again next week to another 3 more outlets. although i don't know what to get. But i'll get something. At the end of the day, the sales that Salvation Army get from selling the donated items will be given to humanitarian needs (Charity). So, must support.

i'm officially overweight.

height : 1.69

weight: 71kg

I need a personal trainer to get me back to shape. i really do. Free service.No fees.Anyone?..haha

Plus, need to control my daily food 'festivals' cause fasting month drawing near.

Oh yeah, my mom just brought home Dunkin Donut.ok.gtg, need to eat the donuts. Btw, try munchy donuts.Worth your money. 2 kinds of Donuts in 3 days.I think i found the cause for my overweight.

*donut-ing off at 10.42pm*

2007-08-19T07:59:00.000-07:00

Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's

*lying on the green grass with her and look up to the bright blue sky and hold her hands tightly*

*how i would want to lay there with her forever and how she meant the world to me, how she colours and bring rainbows to my life*

*she was crying on my shoulder and how i tell her that life has to move on and she'll have me when she needs me*

*how everytime i turn around and looked away, my thoughts of her just fillled my mine- i smile*

*is all beacuse of you-what did you do to me*smiles*

*walking together along the shore with both of feet in the cold sea and coarse sand and cool breeze wind slowly whispers*

*watching sunset and whisper softly to her ear ; "although the sun has set, my love for you will be bright enough to help you get through the night"*

*you came and changed my whole world now; somewhere i've never been before*

*never before, felt for someone like this*

but, it ain't happening. cause i know she don't..... *goes on*

p.s.- bet my friends are going to say 'this is so gay'..haha.i don't care. non of you guys feel the same way as i do..but don't worry, i still love you guys.

wan :)

2007-08-16T07:21:00.000-07:00

this video is damn funny.humor.

and this is the real one.

2007-08-15T20:57:00.000-07:00

Better Than Me -Hinder

I was reading my testimonials.all of it. It was nice and sweet to be reading the testi that my friends gave me.earlier ones. Then something just bolt in to my mind. How much I have changed. I'm still the same guy as before(responsible, kind sweet, friendly - from the testimonials) except that I'm now more (open)-minded, and straight forward. Speak-out more often.Enough of about worrying what people really wanna say about you.The time has come for me to care more about myself than i used to. But i know where's the limit. Egoness and cocky-ness ain't going to beset (encompass) me. Plus, I'm laughing and having fun more than before. It's all about living life to the fullest each day. You will never know when your time running out.

Stop Poverty.World Peace.

wan :)

2007-08-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

If you aint there, ain't nobody to be impressed

cause the way that you know what i thought i knew,

is the beat in my heart says when im with you

but i still don't understand, just how the love your doing

no one else can

support the fight against poverty in africa.

world peace.

wan :)

2007-08-10T00:51:00.000-07:00

We Need A Resolution -Aaliyah feat Timberland

all alone inthe lab.My 'wifes' left me all alone.haha...yeap..one went to follow her brother to renew passport lah ,the other one went to follow friend buy pants lah. then the other one i don't know why she left.haha.see. leave me again lah and i will keep calling you guys my 'wifes'.haha

wednesday. After school accompanied Sad to bugis cum marina. G200 was having 70% sale. So as any other Singaporeans, she got herself a pant, shirt and skirt.all formal. She needed it.hmm.ok. On the way to dinner, we bump into Sheikh.He's getting skinnier.i told Sad and she said, "same what!".hmm.ok.After dinner, we went to Marina Square staircase.haha.yup.staircase. the one facing esplanade.not the one inside the shopping mall.haha.Then begin the photo shoot session.haha.we laugh and took crazy pics.really crazy.and.oh yeah, im gussing any minute that Fad's friends gonna bash me up.haha.Sad, i think you know why.haha.

Thursday. It's Singapore's 42nd Birthday!!! but i didn't really watched the show.well, not reall didn't.i actually did but not really.get it?!..no? yes?..haha.ok.earlier that day, i went to Sharifah's sisters engagement.two sisters.she was so excited that her sisters are getting engaged.well, if it was me, i will be too. i mean, i am still waiting for the day my brothers getting married. Anyway, thoughout the time we ( me,ZAM, fir, Dir and Diy)were there we kept distrubing Dir's and Sharifah's 'engagement'.haha.Dir was pissed off though.haha. It was just a joke.Then, we did some photo taking.n then went to TM arcade..

Today. Early in the morning i got shitting session. It was all because i ate mee soto at 11pm yesterday.The feeling of sensation when the shit was about to come out was awesome.haha.ok.im disgusting.yea!!!..then had breakfast at McDonald's.and i started to feel like shitting again.i guess this was one of my secret for not putting on weight and look fat.yeah.i do.Then met Diy, Dir and Zam. THANKS Diy for the treat.She treat us Pizza. Next time, Swensen.ok.haha.muka tk tau malu.muka tembok, itu pasal ada double chin.haha.

im looking for a job.i really do.

wan one :)

2007-08-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

*watch*

*listen*

*adore*

wan :)